chef_me

Ok finally updating my blog. It has been a hard couple of months, my gf and I have not seen much of each other of late, if you have read any of my last blogs you will see that she has been have a hard time of late and has not wanted to see me or anyone else for that matter. I finally got to spend a little time with her the other day after work at a local pub. She was looking sad (but beautiful as always) and did not stay out to late and insisted that I stay behind with friends. When I walked her out she gave me a couple of big hugs and told me she was barely keeping it together and had a lot to tell me but was not ready to talk yet but would let me know when she was. Then another big hug and later a text saying sorry she had to leave. Man I hurt for her and miss her so much, it is hard to go from seeing her everyday to hardly ever, if it was not for the texting back and forth I would think it was over and she just does not know how to tell me. This situation sucks ass, I feel for her and so want to help but she does not want any and is dealing or trying to on her own, but I miss her so much it hurts. Ok sucking it up now and thanks for letting get this off my chest.