chazzzhadez

Yes this may come off as trivial and argumentative speaking. Honestly I don’t really care if it does. I’ve been single for the last 4 years for many reasons. My last ex constantly cheated on me with dudes that would treat her like shit. When I treated her like a damn princess. She like being treated like shit because everyone else did and me being nice and treating her like a human made her uncomfortable. With that left a huge hole that I wanted to fill but couldn’t really find anyone that could. One of the other reasons why I choose to stay single is because I believe in old school romance. I want to make sure you know your above all of their woman and the only one I’m looking at for love. I don’t believe in hook up culture and honestly if I can fuck you on the first date that’s a huge turn off. No, I’m not slut shaming anyone if you want to do that then cool for you. You keep doing you and i hope it works out for you honestly I do. I don’t want sex to be a given, I want to earn it. I love being told no, not tonight. I want to know that there is a commitment before we fuck. I’ve had sex friends and those relationships held no merit of honour. Just an excuse to go fuck and pretend that everything is fine when it’s clearly not. Plus let’s face it, sex has never been a motivating factor in my life. Far more important things to do. I also often get told that I complain too much about being single. That’s the thing I’m not complaining about being single. I’m complaining about my lack of companionship. I may not want a relationship, but call me the doctor because all I need is a companion. Someone I can cuddle with not matte the spoon (I like being both big and little). Someone I can look forward to seeing any chance I get to see them. Someone that will scratch my head and play with hair. Someone that I can trade shoulder and back rubs with. Also ladies I do give a hell of a hand massage. Someone I can come home too with flowers and shitty Rom-Com and be excited to chill on the couch with. Someone I can take out to a show and know we’ll have a kick ass time watching a shitty local band flounder in a dive bar. I stopped looking for a companion because I stopped believing I’d find someone that wants the samethings in life I do. Instead all I’ve come across are hook up, and good time girls. Sorry rants done, I just had to get that off my chest.