charlatan

Well that didn't last. Once I realized that we have financial obligations that are tied together still, coupled with the fact that i love my poch, I reconciled with my wife.

I have no ablilty to persevere through hard decisions sometimes. i have amazing will to get through many things but relationships are not one of them. Always forgive and forget. For anyone I call friend at any time no matter what the transgression I always seem to find a way to forgive. Call me gullible. I do sometimes.

Interpol tomorrow. I'm excited. The possibility of meeting new people is exciting to me. I love it. new people mean new avenues for life. No one can change overnight and few people can change on their own.

I'm walking a new path now. On e of bright possibility and unknown results. It's scary and exiciting at the some time. It drives me and holds me back together. this pulling of opposite directions is painful yet invigorating.

Even though all these things are at the beginning it wouldn't take much of a setback for me crawl back to the hole a came from.

I am proceeding with caution.

Yet I am optimistic.