You guys are all pretty amazing to be worried about me... but don't. Wasting your energy on me won't get you anywhere.
My whole life it's been don't cry, don't panic, don't freak, don't give up. You have to be the strong one, you have to keep it together, you have to try harder... failure is not an option.
Well, I'm failing. I'm failing badly.
My frusteration is getting the best of me and for the first time in my life I want to just give up, go into the fetal postion and cry.
I have amazing children and an amazing husband. They are my sunshine when it rains but I'm failing them.
I'm working as hard as I can and it's not getting us anywhere.. I just got paid yesterday and after paying bills I have less than $40 in the bank.. for a WEEK with 3 KIDS! How the fuck am I supposed to survive on that? I feel like I worked all week for nothing..
It's the 3rd week of summer break and do you know what my kids have done.. not a god damned thing. This isn't summer break.. it's purgatory.
Zipper tries so hard. He's even at a showing right now.. in the rain, to try to sell a house so we can survive. He's been trying for so long, I don't know how he keeps going. I'd have given up ages ago. He has the most amazing resolve.
I guess I'm just at my end. I'm done.
Something has to bend before I break. And I'm starting to crack.
My whole life it's been don't cry, don't panic, don't freak, don't give up. You have to be the strong one, you have to keep it together, you have to try harder... failure is not an option.
Well, I'm failing. I'm failing badly.
My frusteration is getting the best of me and for the first time in my life I want to just give up, go into the fetal postion and cry.
I have amazing children and an amazing husband. They are my sunshine when it rains but I'm failing them.
I'm working as hard as I can and it's not getting us anywhere.. I just got paid yesterday and after paying bills I have less than $40 in the bank.. for a WEEK with 3 KIDS! How the fuck am I supposed to survive on that? I feel like I worked all week for nothing..
It's the 3rd week of summer break and do you know what my kids have done.. not a god damned thing. This isn't summer break.. it's purgatory.
Zipper tries so hard. He's even at a showing right now.. in the rain, to try to sell a house so we can survive. He's been trying for so long, I don't know how he keeps going. I'd have given up ages ago. He has the most amazing resolve.
I guess I'm just at my end. I'm done.
Something has to bend before I break. And I'm starting to crack.
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I hope it gets easier.
KRISS
[Edited on Jun 24, 2004 3:29PM]
we all are there down in the doldrums at one point in time
but i wont not worry and i will always wish ya the best cus yer nice and all so like yeah
*hugs*
here is to sincerely wishing things improve for the better