charitee

i don't think i bothered to fall asleep last night. i think i passed out. woke up groggy and feeling like a zombie.

had a dream last night that was a little haunting. i've always believed that my dreams are a window to what my soul is screaming. if thats true my life isnt going to get less complicated any time soon.

she came to me in my sleep. she doesnt do that often anymore. she said she loved me, missed me but that i had to let go. i never really have. there is a part of me that sort of expects her to come back. she isnt coming back. i'm broken all over again.

9 years is a long time to hold on.