chancy

today was pay day... har har. my paychecks for the next 3 months are already spent. i hate debt... everyone's telling me to get used to it, you're gonna have some form of debt all your life. i made it through most of university with no debt, and now it looks like i'm going to have to get myself ready for some heavy borrowing to finally obtain the much coveted piece of paper.

i used to have a wonderfully close male friend. 8 months ago he told me he couldn't hang out anymore, and the reason was understandable. we continue to e-mail and cautiously msn, but it's never been the same. friends would see us together and know there was something special between us. we knew there was something special. as time drags on, he gets farther and father away. i don't even know if we started hanging out again if the bond would return.

i dedicate this journal to you, my sweet friend. i miss you horribly. if only i had the courage to say how i really feel.