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she walked closer to the water
the coarse sand like kitty litter between her toes
the sun had already rose and set
and the air
it sat on her weighing her down
her stomach sat heavily
she fell to her knees
her forehead slowly bringing itself to the ground
she sat and cried
her tears falling into the sand
adding more salt to the sea...
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Methinks.....while I am sitting around, everyday on the computer, looking for a job like, well, it was my job... I want to start writing again. I don't have any plans, I never do, whatever comes out...it just rolls on out.
Emptymouthpiece probably would agree with me
i haven't wrote in quite some time, but i have wanted to...This is a good opportunity.

I hope it...
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3 months.

YAY!

he stuck with me even though i'm an EVIL BITCH!

jajaja

i'm in love



<3 Adrian <3

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Since I've been back in New Jersey, I have been quite busy. I have dedicated my days to finding a job(or 2 or 3). I've been on websites, I've been to a mini-interview, that will continue on the 30th, when I go back for testing, this is for the census bureau where I am aiming for a position as an administrative assistant and only the...
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I am alive. I promise. Adrian and I had an awesome little departure from reality. We hid out in Orlando and Kissimmee for almost 3wks. We were all kissy face and stuff. I loved every moment of it. This morning we went to the airport to send Adrian home and I kept wanting to cry on the way there. Fucking hard to have someone you...
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yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
So, Adrian landed at like 9am on Friday. He got pulled into customs and apparently, Orlando airport is the slowest airport ever so we didnt get to leave until 11am. and


we've been busy. doing...stuff....and watching stuff....and eating stuff....and yea

we're gonna go do that now.

we're gonna be in chat for a few minutes now if you wanna watch us sit here and...
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I have this thing for...well, haunting music. i guess some people would find them stupid, boring, sleepytime songs. I always look for the ether, as they say in All About Lily Chou Chou(but you guys probably haven't seen that movie, it's required to be my friend, I think. I should make a list of things. anyways)

here is an amazing song that I've always adored....
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ok, so...i'm going to be away for a bit with moving and Adrian's visit where I won't need anything but him around. So, you guys are gonna be on the back burner until I get my shit straight....i figured, when Ms Chicken Nugget aka _Zeus_ posted this, how fitting...I'll go out with a bunch of crap about me that probably no one wants to know....
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new quote:

"why i havent killed myself?
its because... i just await the moment of my death. cause you can die everyday. but its uncertain if you will live again.."


things are going to be getting VERY stressful for me soon. then hopefully, lessen and lessen...
i will have Adrian with me in a little more than a week.
I will have to find myself...
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wellllll....
tonight....
i will start with the quote of the evening, from jay/sasha
"I have never taken a dump in drag."
onwards
let me find some music so you can match my mood....


this is my bad luck song. people die when i play it and it haunts me. i hope you all enjoy!!
i just feel like...i can't open my eyes and see things....
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