cfq

things have been subdued
and my mind has been out of orbit
it's pretty intense at times
but i'm reeling it back in
can you dig?

had sex and spent the time after in so much mental discomfort, i had to breathe through nausea and fought back tears. he is completely understanding of everything and if i did those things, he woulda just scooped me up and taken me home and made sure i was okay.
i wasn't prepared.

because i dont think he is
that is why i am still talking to someone else
...he told me not to put my life on hold for him
and i agree. if it's meant to be, so it will.
we can't stop fate
im hoping wednesday or thursday i get to hang out with someone
if he is being extra nosy, he'll read this and rub it in my face
it's ok. i'll just blush and smile.

don't worry kids, i'll be keeping my legs tightly shut
i don't think i will be having sex again, for a while, unless it is promised to be soft and i guess that makes it all "love-making" and i don't have anyone to make love to.
fml.

i didnt have to work at all this weekend
ugh
on-call BOTH nights
sucked a lot
i don't have work again until friday, day shift. i should be asleep now, since yea....i need to switch my schedule. or should i force myself to stay awake so that i adapt in the opposite manner?
lol
hell
anywho
i need to get me a dumpster slut that does her squats

some of shena ringo's newest album for ppls to listen to and love like MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE




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blam
so pretty, it'd make yo mama cry
.bitch.


adding this song...
love it