Horray!!! tomorrow = last night of night shift! and it makes me so happy. i get to go back to normal sleeping schedule, and my body is going to scream thank you. so i realized i haven't posted any in depth blogs... so here goes my attempt.
1. i'm so excited for this weekend, my best friend and my fiance's two brothers are coming to stay the weekend with us, so it's going to be a blast. not quite sure what is on the agenda, probably alot of video games/movies and goofing around. my only concern is i might be grumpy due to lack of sleep from the schedule change.
2. the fiance and i are apartment hunting. we have been staying with his parents (in a studio type thing, in the renovated garage) and it's really wearing on us. its difficult, because his dad is a hoarder/pack rat, and his mom almost never cleans, and living in a dirty house is stressful. but me not having a job is making this hard. we have a very low price range, and so its hard to find an apartment.
3. the job search is still not providing any results. and i'm feeling really down about it.
4. actually i'm just feeling really down in general. we've had to postpone our wedding (pushed it back a year) due to lack of money and the fact that we are not going to be able to save since we'll be paying more than we do now($250) in rent. i'm also really upset about family. this one is such a long story but shortened version is:
my dad wasn't around since i was six, and talked to me off and on in the time he wasnt there. he
was on and off drugs my whole life and it was hard. than when i was 16 my mother kicked me out
because my step-dad (who was abusive, and possibly a child molester) threatened to leave her
if i came back from my friends for Xmas vacation. my youngest sister has told me to change my last
name because its an embarrassment to her. my other sister has a baby, i think shes about 6 or 7
months old now, and i dont think i'll ever see her. they live in montana, and i live in washington. they
dont even talk to me anymore. basically it sucks. and thats about it.
5. my rambling about my family, it has made me cry.l feel kinda pathetic right now. where's my chocolate? lol
6. on a positive note my set was accepted for member review, and i'm really excited. i think i've improved alot, and maybe have a shot this time.
1. i'm so excited for this weekend, my best friend and my fiance's two brothers are coming to stay the weekend with us, so it's going to be a blast. not quite sure what is on the agenda, probably alot of video games/movies and goofing around. my only concern is i might be grumpy due to lack of sleep from the schedule change.
2. the fiance and i are apartment hunting. we have been staying with his parents (in a studio type thing, in the renovated garage) and it's really wearing on us. its difficult, because his dad is a hoarder/pack rat, and his mom almost never cleans, and living in a dirty house is stressful. but me not having a job is making this hard. we have a very low price range, and so its hard to find an apartment.
3. the job search is still not providing any results. and i'm feeling really down about it.
4. actually i'm just feeling really down in general. we've had to postpone our wedding (pushed it back a year) due to lack of money and the fact that we are not going to be able to save since we'll be paying more than we do now($250) in rent. i'm also really upset about family. this one is such a long story but shortened version is:
my dad wasn't around since i was six, and talked to me off and on in the time he wasnt there. he
was on and off drugs my whole life and it was hard. than when i was 16 my mother kicked me out
because my step-dad (who was abusive, and possibly a child molester) threatened to leave her
if i came back from my friends for Xmas vacation. my youngest sister has told me to change my last
name because its an embarrassment to her. my other sister has a baby, i think shes about 6 or 7
months old now, and i dont think i'll ever see her. they live in montana, and i live in washington. they
dont even talk to me anymore. basically it sucks. and thats about it.
5. my rambling about my family, it has made me cry.l feel kinda pathetic right now. where's my chocolate? lol
6. on a positive note my set was accepted for member review, and i'm really excited. i think i've improved alot, and maybe have a shot this time.
7. i'm reading an amazing book called the child thief, check it out. its an interesting take on peter pan.
well i think thats all the updates i have for today.
hope everyone has an amazing thursday.
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And good luck on the job search!
Hard times all over lately...