I went running on the trail today. I was off in my own little antisocial world when I noticed two women up ahead. The one had a blue bandana on her head and the obvious look of someone undergoing chemo. As I approached, I expected them to be having a heavy conversation (yeh, I eavesdrop), but they were talking about chairs being delivered and how...
Read More
Two months since my last journal and I'm still tired of working 16 hour days. I feel like a prisoner to this office and I want out. I need a night of beers & tequilla at some hole in the wall.
Fuck...I'm so tired of working 14 and 16 hour days. I just want to go somewhere warm and sleep in the sun all day. I miss Jamaica. I need a month in Jamaica. 
adoresmom:
Feel free to come to Florida and take all this sun away from me. I would love to see what winter is all about. Just a day in the cold away from this heat, now that would be better.
adelayde:
i need a lot of time in Jamaica, too. lol. & yeah... that train bridge & tunnel & stuff are right on Ilchester Rd in Ellicott City. it's technically part of the Patapsaco State Park. there a lot more to do than just the train bridge, but that is my favorite part. i love it!
adelayde:
unfortunately, i don't have my jeep all the time. i share it with my father, but my sister has it right now. long story. lmao.
I want to write today, but I have no words to express how I feel. What words can express the abandonment of feelings? It feels safe. Fuck it all. What's more important: having it all together or looking like you have it all together? If I shut it all down, I survive, I get through. Initializing shut-down sequence.
~In the City of Compton they keep...
Read More
~In the City of Compton they keep...
Read More
"I looked to heaven, and tried to pray:
But or ever a prayer had gusht,
A wicked whisper came, and made
my heart as dry as dust."
Samuel Taylor Coleridge
Rime of the Ancient Mariner
But or ever a prayer had gusht,
A wicked whisper came, and made
my heart as dry as dust."
Samuel Taylor Coleridge
Rime of the Ancient Mariner