Sunday Oct 23, 2005

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This weekend has been wild. To start off my best friend and I got into a disagreement. Then I had to host a slumber party for my daughters friends. Not so bad, a bunch of little girls on a sugar high and didn't slow down till 3:30 this morning. Also today I celebrated my 1 year anniversary with Botb.

Have you ever felt lost and not sure why? I have lost myself. I have got out of touch of who I am. I feel like I don't take part in the things that use to bring me joy. I have not read any of my spiritual books in the past month. I have not practiced my yoga or meditation. I feel like I have closed my third eye, and finding it's really hard to open. None of my beliefs have changed. But I don't feel connected with myself or my surroundings. It has been ages since I have just gazed at a full moon, walked on a trail and enjoyed the beauty of nature.

Friends say it's because of the loss of my father. He was the only one who understood me. Others say I have pushed myself to thin. I am getting run down.

But I feel I need to go in search of myself again. I should have some pretty good updates in my journal.

reverendijs:
Sorry to hear of you misfortune. Hopefully all will balance again. Glad you liked the tat. I have the rest posted soon I hope. Specially my gunniess harps on my collar bone. Cheers

The Rev
siiix:
Sometimes you need to go outside and sit under the stars. Clear your mind and smoke a cigarette. I usually do this after I get my kids to sleep. It's getting a little to cold outside now, though.

Did you get any snow last night? I woke up this morning and the ground had a layer of wet snow all over! Almost all of it melted by the time I got back from taking my son to school. Kinda scary! I don't remember ever having snow in October!

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