catthepirate

i cant fucking sleep and i have to work at 8am. damn you cruel world. amanda is sleeping over for the second night in a row. yay for slumber parties. i cannot wait until her and i move in together. fun times to come.
i cannot stop thinking about Joe, aka Coast Guard, even though i got way fucked over on our last visit together. UGH!!!!!!! im mad im not bipolar anymore, or never was or whatever. but yeah i liked being bipolar it made more sense to me than having this shitty anxiety and panic disorder. boo for not being as crazy as it hought i was.
my right contact has been bugging me a lot, i shoudl take them out but i gave amanda my contact case to use for the night. wow arent i super.
my pills make me shake and speed my heart up and it sucks. i need sleeping pills or at least pills that make me relaxed!! fuck seriously, i cannot relax anymore. my body always hurts and i hate it.
both my mom and my dad wanna help amanda and i move in , but thats kinda akward since i cant tell either of them or they will get jealous and they havent spoken in probably over a year.
fuck fuck fuck.