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in the sunrise of a year that pain will be gone

This phrase, written to me, has become my strength through an unbearable season of pain. I am finding within myself strength that I didnt realize I possessed fueled by determination born of passion. Passion that has always been a part of who I am but not always expressed. Recently, through self exploration, I have realized how much of my life has been affected by stifling my passion. I was too busy trying to fit myself into molds of the type of person I felt I should be. Decisions made years ago that set off a chain reaction molding me into who I am today. But at what price?

I look to that sunrise in the distance and I see hope. I see a future filled with laughter and happiness. I have confidence I am changing into a woman I am proud to be. The changes that are descending upon me are many. But thats okay. Change is good. I am looking at a new start. A chance to make the right decisions: to learn from my past and not stumble over the same mistakes. Although the pain is unbearable at times, I find myself giddy with the anticipation of an empty canvas on which to begin my life anew. Being me, being honest with who I am and who I want to be. Honest and true in the eyes and arms of my loved ones. There is such freedom in opening completely from the inside and embracing my true self.

Thank you for your love. Thank you for the freedom you have bestowed upon my sense of self. Thank you for setting my spirit free and giving me the ability to love completely.