ugh good and bad day. had meetings at work. they were ok...
i suddenly got a downing effect in the late afternoon, not sure why. went on and on from there..at the grocery store almost broke my neck on the slippery floor, and no one turned around. I'm not sure if it was the embarassment of slipping that bothered me more, or the fact that no one seemed to notice.
I should clean my apartment, but since I was in a blah mood I ended up making myself steak for supper, and polishing off an entire mc cain vanilla cake.
Horrible. Thank goodness Im going to the gym tomorrow. I started tidying up a little but then stopped because as I did I thought to myself that it was kinda stupid of me to have put up any christmas decorations as the last time someone came over was over 2 months ago, and I think it was my mom. 
Which depressed me even more, and then made me wonder why I was even bothering to clean up since no one was gonna see it anyway.
So..i'm chugging a water bottle right now, and blaring some early 90's dance music.
Hoping to cheer myself up, but to no avail. I might end up smoking later on so I don't go to bed this depressed...technically I shouldn't since I have to get up at 5:30 tomorrow for the gym. Thank GOD I have the gym..there were actually points in time where I hated going. Now it's the only thing that keeps me sane.
I need to make some friends. Well friends that are within driving distance of me, and that have cars...I want a boyfriend. Being single sucks...especially around holidays. Would be nice to have a girlfriend too..someone to snuggle & play with. I touching skin that isn't mine.
i suddenly got a downing effect in the late afternoon, not sure why. went on and on from there..at the grocery store almost broke my neck on the slippery floor, and no one turned around. I'm not sure if it was the embarassment of slipping that bothered me more, or the fact that no one seemed to notice.
I should clean my apartment, but since I was in a blah mood I ended up making myself steak for supper, and polishing off an entire mc cain vanilla cake.
Horrible. Thank goodness Im going to the gym tomorrow. I started tidying up a little but then stopped because as I did I thought to myself that it was kinda stupid of me to have put up any christmas decorations as the last time someone came over was over 2 months ago, and I think it was my mom. Which depressed me even more, and then made me wonder why I was even bothering to clean up since no one was gonna see it anyway.
So..i'm chugging a water bottle right now, and blaring some early 90's dance music.
Hoping to cheer myself up, but to no avail. I might end up smoking later on so I don't go to bed this depressed...technically I shouldn't since I have to get up at 5:30 tomorrow for the gym. Thank GOD I have the gym..there were actually points in time where I hated going. Now it's the only thing that keeps me sane.
I need to make some friends. Well friends that are within driving distance of me, and that have cars...I want a boyfriend. Being single sucks...especially around holidays. Would be nice to have a girlfriend too..someone to snuggle & play with. I touching skin that isn't mine.