I'm back from Austin.
It was insane.
Friday night on the drive over we kept losing each other because the car leading kept driving too fast. We were in Houston forever (Houston is a black hole). My period started and of course I couldn't get my keeper in. I took a long time trying and was finally like, "Fuck it' and got some bads. So...
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It was insane.
Friday night on the drive over we kept losing each other because the car leading kept driving too fast. We were in Houston forever (Houston is a black hole). My period started and of course I couldn't get my keeper in. I took a long time trying and was finally like, "Fuck it' and got some bads. So...
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Cat! is sleepy. I just had that panel. It was too short--damn 50 minutes classes, I wanted to talk more! The facilitator kept on moving on to the next question before I could answer anything. : ( "Hi, I'm Cat!. I identify as female and bisexual." I'm going to take a nap in a few minutes. Hopefully I'll wake up in time to pack for...
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gil:
mmm... nnnaaapp
charlie_stars:
sleep no cant sleep clowns will catch me
Isidore was a wimp. I bet the chancellor feels silly for cancelleling classes today. *laughs at the chancellor*
I'm listening to Radiohead, "Pablo Honey."
I think a lot of this is pre-menstrual moodiness.
It used toreally bother me when Ryan's away message was "Good things come to those who wait." Now he uses the default, "I am away from my computer right now." This offends...
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I'm listening to Radiohead, "Pablo Honey."
I think a lot of this is pre-menstrual moodiness.
It used toreally bother me when Ryan's away message was "Good things come to those who wait." Now he uses the default, "I am away from my computer right now." This offends...
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joscelyne:
i gotcha 
liquid29:
Kinda dig the profile pic...it's a good outlet for the artists displeasure with then preoccupation with appearance in the modern world, the increasing mutual exclusivity of visual and emotional stimuli....or something like that 
He signs on. I haven't talked to him in awhile so I IM him. Just seeing his name on my buddy list makes me nervous. He doesn't respond. It hurts. I kinda feel like saying, "Fuck you!" He'd probably be confused. I have no reason for that... I mean, I can't hate him for not wanting to go out with me.
Ah, he finally responds...
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Ah, he finally responds...
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gil:
human nature
you like him cuz hes alooof or dosnt like you that way
time to (i know its hard) find a new crush find someone to chase you you deserve better plus it sounds like this hole things a big pain in your ass
you like him cuz hes alooof or dosnt like you that way
time to (i know its hard) find a new crush find someone to chase you you deserve better plus it sounds like this hole things a big pain in your ass
fortissimo:
So I have another friend named Cat--entirely true coincidence--and she's radical, hairy, bisexual, intense, and just generally an awful lot like you. It's kind of eerie, actually, so I haven't mentioned it before.
And she is currently travelling the world leaving a trail of boys in her wake. Right now she is in Amsterdam, and we were chatting the other day, and she was actually having to make distinctions between "my Dutch boy" and "my Dutch-Persian boy".
Which I bring up by way of telling you: whatever you are, there are people out there who think it is the most awesome thing ever. Obviously, you are not the same person as my Cat, but you talk about all these qualities of yours as if they are slightly negative, working against you even though you can't change them.
In my Cat, they are luminously, enticingly positive.
The thing is, you have to consider not only how you feel about someone, but how they make *you* feel about *you*. I'm an expert on how easy it is to fritter away oodles of time pining for someone who makes you feel increasingly wretched about everything you are, because they can't or won't reciprocate. And it's incredibly easy to tell yourself, "I have to cling to this, because I may never feel this again, and besides I am wretched."
But...
You *will* feel it again.
You are not wretched.
You are luminous and enticing
And someone out there is passionately wishing a radical vegan bisexual activist girl would tumble into his/her life.
Be that girl.
Be luminous and enticing.
Be Cat!
And she is currently travelling the world leaving a trail of boys in her wake. Right now she is in Amsterdam, and we were chatting the other day, and she was actually having to make distinctions between "my Dutch boy" and "my Dutch-Persian boy".
Which I bring up by way of telling you: whatever you are, there are people out there who think it is the most awesome thing ever. Obviously, you are not the same person as my Cat, but you talk about all these qualities of yours as if they are slightly negative, working against you even though you can't change them.
In my Cat, they are luminously, enticingly positive.
The thing is, you have to consider not only how you feel about someone, but how they make *you* feel about *you*. I'm an expert on how easy it is to fritter away oodles of time pining for someone who makes you feel increasingly wretched about everything you are, because they can't or won't reciprocate. And it's incredibly easy to tell yourself, "I have to cling to this, because I may never feel this again, and besides I am wretched."
But...
You *will* feel it again.
You are not wretched.
You are luminous and enticing
And someone out there is passionately wishing a radical vegan bisexual activist girl would tumble into his/her life.
Be that girl.
Be luminous and enticing.
Be Cat!
Hmm... it now says "To insert a link, use this form..." does this mean I can use html for other things?
nope.
grrrr.
Cat! is sleepy. Cat! was stupid and skipped class again today. I think there was a quiz too. I got up at 8am to read but went back to sleep at 9:30 and didn't get up until 1:30.
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nope.
grrrr.
Cat! is sleepy. Cat! was stupid and skipped class again today. I think there was a quiz too. I got up at 8am to read but went back to sleep at 9:30 and didn't get up until 1:30.
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thegrandvomica:
I love hurricanes. When Fran passed over Raleigh was one of the most enjoyable nights of my life. I went out and tried to walk the dog, but she was scared and dragged me back inside before we got past the driveway
catboner:
skipping class sounds like a good idea. perhaps tomorrow...
I am pierced!
We were going to do it yesterday but Rachel has a deposition and so I was talking to her and was like, "Are you doing anything today?" and she was like, "No, want to go now?" And I was like, "Yeah!" So we went. The chick who did my piercing was really cool. I'm so excited.
So, yeah, left eyebrow. Yay. Happy...
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We were going to do it yesterday but Rachel has a deposition and so I was talking to her and was like, "Are you doing anything today?" and she was like, "No, want to go now?" And I was like, "Yeah!" So we went. The chick who did my piercing was really cool. I'm so excited.
So, yeah, left eyebrow. Yay. Happy...
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juebi:
Yeah for new holes in our bodies!!!
freyja__:
woohoo!
get that webcam working!
get that webcam working!
They fucking erased the Bloody Cunts again. So, I rewrote it with a Sharpie. I am evil. If someone's going to be offended by that they should respect my free speech and ignore it. It's probably some Southern Baptist although I realize I'm stereotyping Southern Baptists which is just as closed-minded as them erasing my board.
The Spectrum meeting went well. It was also a...
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The Spectrum meeting went well. It was also a...
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juebi:
Good for you! I think it's awesome to see people get involved with things that are important to them. Especially things like sexuality, when alot of people in this world are still so freaked out about dumb shit like that. Screw 'em. Glad to see some people doing something positive
mistersatan:
Well, that's what chat is for, dearie!
I skipped class. I don't even know why I did it. I mean, I did lay back down but I got up when my roommate called at 12 so I still could have made it to class. Instead, I started to go to class and then was like, "Eh, I'm hungry, I'll go to Fortune Kitchen." I was walking around as if in a dream....
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mistersatan:
You should have skipped class and walked around while listening to the Beatles. 
pixilated101:
Some days you must do and not think.
If your body says don't go then don't go.
guilt for you actions is not required.
If your body says don't go then don't go.
guilt for you actions is not required.
BLOODY CUNTS!
I keep writing that on the dry erase board on my door and someone keeps erasing it. Underneath, someone wrote, "Aww is it that time of the month for you too?" and I wrote, "Nah, I'm just reading 'Cunt' (a book every woman should read--especially whoever keeps erasing this) and I know someone who is always talking about the bloody cunts and who...
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I keep writing that on the dry erase board on my door and someone keeps erasing it. Underneath, someone wrote, "Aww is it that time of the month for you too?" and I wrote, "Nah, I'm just reading 'Cunt' (a book every woman should read--especially whoever keeps erasing this) and I know someone who is always talking about the bloody cunts and who...
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mistersatan:
Here, I'll try to help you... "Now, we've never met before, have we... just watch the pendulum swinging back and forth... now SLEEEEEEEP!!!"
Did that help?
Did that help?
emily:
just write....... you erase=YOU DIE!
Right, so I just did something really random. I was talking to some guy online and he was like, "Do you like talking on the phone?" I said, "sometimes." and he was like you can call me and I said no but then I said he could call me if he wanted. So he called me and we talked a bit and he saying he'd...
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juebi:
Well, I DO have 2 guitar players, I guess I COULD let have one for a while.......... just return him in good shape
freyja__:
sounds like an interesting weekend was had all around.
maybe next time you can make it up for another SG meet.
maybe next time you can make it up for another SG meet.
Ok, this is "My Song." It's the first of the songs I wrote (Ryan is the subject). This one came to me when I was thinking about how his songs about imaginary and real girls and how I'd like him to write a song for me but I was like, "fuck it, I'll write my own damn song." So, yeah, that's what this is. I...
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catculus:
you people make me feel so good about myself! :-D
*great big hug*
*great big hug*
emily:
That's SO how I feel too!!
So I'm upset / angry / frustrated. I'm tired of this neverending pattern of people only being able to see me as a friend. I'm tired of the crushes. And I really don't like it when 14 year old British chicks IM Ryan trying to convince him to go out with me...
So, I realize it's his loss. Right? I mean, if he's not going...
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pureblu12225:
yea I suppose that is true but still come to Ukiah you will see where I'm coming from...
but still come to Ukiah you will see where I'm coming from...
kingnicotine10756:
kik him in the balls and be like look at me love me..he will or say fuck it and find someone who is interested in you
and fat kids do rule! wanna know my knickname? BullBack hehehehe seriously tho
never ever be upset with yourself about the way you are
thats how you are thats how it is ya know
and fat kids do rule! wanna know my knickname? BullBack hehehehe seriously tho
never ever be upset with yourself about the way you are
thats how you are thats how it is ya know
Sorry your trip was less-than-stellar. Next time you come to Austin, I'll be your emergency on-call fun-time rescue worker.
-ff