happy monday kiddies...i have to be honest i wasn't a cheerleader today. i felt as if the weekend flew by and i didn't want to deal with a busy day at work like i knew i'd have to.
anyhow, it went fine, i had no meetings all day (a real first in a long while)...don't worry tomorrow will make up for it.
talked to the sweetheart tonight, sucks so bad to skip even one day. sometimes i decide not to call though, and i'm not MAD per se, i dunno i just want him to miss me ya know? not like he doesn't already. he tells me so all the time, but you know what i mean right? is that game playing?
i did look at the job market in ohio it's a nightmare. the thought of leaving my company for what is out there right now is gut wrenching. i feel like i'm just stuck between a rock and a hard place. my best friend was saying last night, just stay in la, deal with it, and save a shitload of money. then go when we're both ready. that would require climbing out of this little hole i've created from moving violations (traffic tix) and stupid late payments. i've been such a flake. sometimes i just throw my hands up in the air and say *fuck it* it's not always the best plan.
so for now, retail therapy, as well as starbucks are on lockdown. i'm really trying to behave (although i did buy some gap panties online last night :/)...and of course i want to buy this AMAZING skirt and corset from hips and curves for halloween :/ but alas i think it's not on "Target" for me getting my ass in his arms. no clothes, or makeup or anything material matters....i'm on a mission, and that mission is to keep it lean, and be reasonable, and save all i can. i will get what i want, i'm determined for that.
it's chilly here in la, feels like fall sorta kinda. all of a sudden like overnight it went from 80 to 65. i had the most amazing steamer clams tonight from the shop that had a marinara type sauce in with them that was to DIE for....i want to take a BATH in that sauce. i had to stop eating it for fear of a tummy ache...too much of anything aint good.
my perfume came today (samples) creed neroli sauvage, omg it's amazing i haven't opened it yet, they are little testers i paid for b/c i can't afford the 180.00 bottle that i want (but really don't need). josh is very into smells but he loves the way i smell au naturale...just like he loves my hair a little dirty, and me with no makeup on. he's silly.
i spent a good hour writing in my book on Sunday before heading to the folks. once i get going it's hard to stop except i realize that i don't write with a pen all that much and my arm gets sore
i've just about gotten up to the point when he came to visit, so now i can write about all of that in vivid detail. someday i hope to be laying in his arms, together, savoring the evenings and reading to him the story of our love, and how i remember every bit of it...i think that he would think it's pretty amazing. i've never even told him about it, it will be a surprise
gossip girl is on tonight, a good waste of an hour of time should go to bed early, still think the creeping crud is going around the office.
i hope everyone's going to have a fantastic week. i've decided i'm going to have a really good one.
xoxo
Cass
anyhow, it went fine, i had no meetings all day (a real first in a long while)...don't worry tomorrow will make up for it.
talked to the sweetheart tonight, sucks so bad to skip even one day. sometimes i decide not to call though, and i'm not MAD per se, i dunno i just want him to miss me ya know? not like he doesn't already. he tells me so all the time, but you know what i mean right? is that game playing?
i did look at the job market in ohio it's a nightmare. the thought of leaving my company for what is out there right now is gut wrenching. i feel like i'm just stuck between a rock and a hard place. my best friend was saying last night, just stay in la, deal with it, and save a shitload of money. then go when we're both ready. that would require climbing out of this little hole i've created from moving violations (traffic tix) and stupid late payments. i've been such a flake. sometimes i just throw my hands up in the air and say *fuck it* it's not always the best plan.
so for now, retail therapy, as well as starbucks are on lockdown. i'm really trying to behave (although i did buy some gap panties online last night :/)...and of course i want to buy this AMAZING skirt and corset from hips and curves for halloween :/ but alas i think it's not on "Target" for me getting my ass in his arms. no clothes, or makeup or anything material matters....i'm on a mission, and that mission is to keep it lean, and be reasonable, and save all i can. i will get what i want, i'm determined for that.
it's chilly here in la, feels like fall sorta kinda. all of a sudden like overnight it went from 80 to 65. i had the most amazing steamer clams tonight from the shop that had a marinara type sauce in with them that was to DIE for....i want to take a BATH in that sauce. i had to stop eating it for fear of a tummy ache...too much of anything aint good.
my perfume came today (samples) creed neroli sauvage, omg it's amazing i haven't opened it yet, they are little testers i paid for b/c i can't afford the 180.00 bottle that i want (but really don't need). josh is very into smells but he loves the way i smell au naturale...just like he loves my hair a little dirty, and me with no makeup on. he's silly.
i spent a good hour writing in my book on Sunday before heading to the folks. once i get going it's hard to stop except i realize that i don't write with a pen all that much and my arm gets sore
i've just about gotten up to the point when he came to visit, so now i can write about all of that in vivid detail. someday i hope to be laying in his arms, together, savoring the evenings and reading to him the story of our love, and how i remember every bit of it...i think that he would think it's pretty amazing. i've never even told him about it, it will be a surprise
gossip girl is on tonight, a good waste of an hour of time
should go to bed early, still think the creeping crud is going around the office.
i hope everyone's going to have a fantastic week. i've decided i'm going to have a really good one.
xoxo
Cass
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niobe:
Good luck with following your heart and your dreams. *kiss*
wsoxfan:
Thank you for those beautiful words and thoughts. For th first time in a long time, i'm feeling optimistic about meeting someone that's right for me.