cassy

well the evening turned out just fine, he called, we talked, we had no drama, i acted normal...he acted slightly stand-offish but at least he called.
i know he loves me.
he says expecting him to say it is like playing games, so i'll let it be for now, some battles you have to pick your time right?
so i ate cinnamon sugar pita chips for dinner, nice and healthy. that after a few pieces of salame and some cheese for lunch. i'm bad.
i should make a pb and j now so i have some actual nutrition at least.

going to laughlin where it's 119 out on thursday. lisa and i are taking a girls trip to get some sun, sand, lake and gambling (not to mention free drinks)...should be fun. i'm worried about getting sentimental....but i will just have to deal.

my roommate said to me tonight, others are merely a reflection of ourselves.

so if i'm bitchy, bratty, insecure and treating someone with no respect, that's what you get back...that's totally what happened last night when i was just having some ridiculous expectations.

look inside yourself to try to be a better person. that's what i'm trying to do, does that sound hokey?

anyhow....
have a good week, monday's done, 2 more days until i'm off...



thanks for reading my feeling sorry for me cry fests guys. i really want to try to stop dwelling and start concentrating on the positive, it's fucking hard....one step at a time though.