Life is a small lake of water, calm on moment and then a rock gets thrown in and u have ripples. The ripples that i am experiencing right now would be that of my Great Grandmother..she is very ill for god sake shes like 95! We have been giving her morphen almost everyday...so in simple terms its almost her time. Now if that wasnt enough...
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I have come to realize that there are 2 basic questions in the world. One that can be asked anytime to anything and the other asked where peoples opinions are concernd.
Why? Why this? Why that? If I had a dollar for everytime I asked my parents Why I had to do something i would be rich right. Do....? The most frighting one to hear...
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Why? Why this? Why that? If I had a dollar for everytime I asked my parents Why I had to do something i would be rich right. Do....? The most frighting one to hear...
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boyamihardcore:
nice ass! (is that ok to say?)
alia666:
Hey hon, are you coming to my slumber party Saturday? If so, you must email me your underwear size and soon.
Well Yesterday wasnt to bad, actually it was rather slow. I know this may sound bad but i think i am learning how to use my body, which us girls are good at to get what we want. Last night i was doing the normal fliration with michael. I took his keys from him and he yelled "hey Amber give those back" of course my...
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lunna:
I agree staying friends with ex's is very cool when you can.
Hugs
Hugs
stgeorge:
Ooh, you're such a tease
All these men lusting after you...all think you're lovely.
All these men lusting after you...all think you're lovely.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!! okay sorry had to get that out of my system. I hope u all plan to stuff urself as i do. I dread Blitz day ( also known as day after thanksgiving) I have to work 11-8 
O well, i am so bored and my car is still broke!! i just have to find a place that is cheap and i can finance...
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O well, i am so bored and my car is still broke!! i just have to find a place that is cheap and i can finance... Read More
lunna:
I enjoyed talking to you. Hope to do more soon.
Much love and hugs
Much love and hugs
OUCH, I am so burnt, i guess i should of been smarter and not gone 20 min o'well. My car is a piece of shit it is broken down again so now i have to figure out to get to work and school. Well cant type much too much pain. Love you and thanks for all ur advice
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hefaistos:
theres a place on north 3rd st. 100 dollars and a handshake...then weekly payments. i dont know if they are worth it though.
I realize more and more everyday that i have a major problem with deciding what i need and i what i want. I think everyone knows what they want in some way or another, but honestly figuring out what u need has to be the hardest step of growing up. I use to want to smoke, i tried it , then gave it up. I...
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stgeorge:
Which way is the rope pulling more though?
fatkid:
When ever I get stuck like that i just ask myself which way will I be happier? And if I cant decide then i dont do either one and go a different route.
Hey people, whats up! not much here just thought i tell u i am coping perrty well, chillin at the Coffee Grounds!!!and Alia just walked in YEAH!!! listen to the concert here pertty nice...i am gonna go though i will talk to u all later...love to all and thanks for the support i been getting
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stgeorge:
Sounds like a good party to be at. Am I invited?
I'm on standby
I'm on standby
alia666:
WHAT MOTHERFUCKIN PARTY???? WHAT'S GOING ON??? WHERE WE'RE YOU??? ACK!
The worse part of knowing that u were wrong about something is that u have it proved to u. Once again God has found it nessary to shoot down lightning at me and make me again realize that I truly live in Hell. I dont know whats worse the fact that i have finals coming up r the fact that i stopped smoking.
Okay so...
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scattershot:
well ... you can get in touch with me via e-mail if you really wanna talk in detail. Im in the same position as you. But Im going to the doctor soon to get meds as I've had enough and I don't want to ruin my friendships with people just because of this dysthymia or depression or whatever it is. Yeah Im nervous about it but it seems like the only way.
lastpenguin:
counselling's a good a place as any to start. and whatever you decide on try to stick with it, even if it feels difficult. I was in conselling for a while, but stopped turning up to sessions after about a month. I regret giving it up now, because its quite clear i still needed help pretty badly. I don't know if that helps at all, but i guess that's my experience of things. and if you want to talk, i'll listen.
I am so damn fucking frustrated, I AM SO HORNY I NEED SEX!!!!!! OOOOOO I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!! ( okay my bad i didnt mean to rant and rave but i need sex) HORNY HORNY HORNY EWWWWW DAMN IT I NEED LAID!!!!!!! 
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stgeorge:
Think a move to England may well be of benefit
faithless000:
visit chicago!! there's lots of non-mullet people here 
hm...My mind ponders everything, every little word every little movement i guess this is why i am studying to be a forensic scienstist. I knew by signs given that Michael was living with his sons mother, but he refers her not as a girlfriend but as IT. The reason for why he stays makes since to me, and i wont dare question that. For the...
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lx:
Is that you in #3. Ass man alert. Nice.
scattershot:
well like I said on AIM I don't know if I have the courage to acctually tell her yet. Im just putting the idea in my mind so that hopefully I do ... Im also still weighing the pros and cons of it. but so far everyone who doesn't know her is telling me its a good idea to tell her to get it out. Tomorrow I can check up with the people who do know her to see if they'll still be my friends if I end up ruining my friendship with her. 
by the way those pictures ... are they all of you? You're totally hot.
x's and o's
Scattershot
by the way those pictures ... are they all of you? You're totally hot.
x's and o's
Scattershot
Let me know what happens babe, and I hope you're doing ok.
I have a grandmother who has had Alzheimer's for the past 3-4 years now. Unfortunately, one Thanksgiving we went to meet her, and while she sometimes used to mix up my name (it never bothered me as she saw my cousins much more often than me), it turned out she had degenerated VERY much in the previous year....and no one told me about it until about 5 miles from my grandparent's farm.
Seeing a grandmother old and senile and afflicted with Alzheimer's to the point that she is 100% not the woman you've known your entire life, nor is she a woman who even knows who her husband is anymore, let alone her grandchild, is a scarring incident....and it has and will continue to dominate my older memories of her, having been more recent, vivid, and jarring.
I told my mom I wanted no contact with her anymore, that she is basically already dead to me, and I thanked her for letting me not cherish my previous thoughts about my loving and wonderful grandmother...instead, replacing them with more vivid and, sadly, more lasting images of the stranger she has become.
I know that sounds harsh...but she doesn't even know that I don't care, and likely couldn't comprehend it anyway...so yes, it's very selfish on my behalf...but...whatever.
Things like that are very disturbing to me...and hopefully your grandmother is still or has been pretty coherent. But at 95, I'm sure she has lived a full life, one that she's proud of, especially havng her family and people like you, and I hope she finds the peace of whatever afterlife there is, with happiness and satisfaction for having lived this one.