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i just text my ex telling him i miss him. im such an idiot. i do miss him, a ridiculous amount, but he has moved on. he is probably with someone else now. he doesn't want me anymore. why can't i get over him?!!! why do i want him back so much? why can't i appreciate being young and single? i crave him so much....
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hey world,
today is a good day because -
1. i have my 1st rehearsal tonight
2. i have new shiney brown hair, and red lippy on!
3. i had a heart to heart with a good friend about lady-loving
4. my flatmate made broccoli and stilton soup!
5. i am listening to Nick Cave
6. i am feeling quite proud of myself, and not...
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i got the part!! woo hoo!! i shall be in the Vagina Monologues at the end of this month.

im so so sooooooooo happy!!

i think i live in a world of poetry.

when i have deadlines, instead of panicing and getting on with it like a good, normal student, i put on music that i can loose myself in and sit for hours on my own. there is something not right about that. but i cant seem to get myself out of wallowing around listening to heartbreaks and...
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im seriously hungover. damn rugby, why do you force me to drink beer???? Scotland were seriously shite aswell, a tiny bit better than usual, but overall pretty poor. it all started so well....... ahh never mind. next time boys!!!

why is it that i know the exact point where i have had enough drink, yet every time i smash straight through it and get in...
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IF SOMEONE SAYS "YOU'RE HOT" YOU SAY?
Beautiful Boy (Darling Boy) - John Lennon

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOUR LIFE?
All Day And All Of The Night - The Kinks

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Love Walked In - Thunder

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE LONG GOAL?
Let There Be Love - Oasis

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
A Case Of You - Joni...
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it's friday! i have the WHOLE weekend off. oh my, i am so happy i could cry!!!!



i really should do some dissertation work................ah well.

got some things to get off my chest....

during my relationship with my ex (a guy), i longed for some space to play around (girls only), i admitted to him that i thought i was bisexual. everything was fine, until one day he decided that i only use him as pair of ears, and don't really love him. so he broke up with me about...
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Red is my favorite color, red like your mother's eyes after awhile of crying about how you don't love her. She says "I know I don't deserve supervised sight of her, but each day becomes a blur without my daughter."

Fall is my favorite season, like falling to reasoning why you crashedfrom on high. She says "Why is my life so uneven, and what have...
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