captainlogan

lately ive been on a jhonen vasquez kick. reading all the comics and watching invader zim again. havent dressed like a pirate at work lately. got bored with it needed a break. have nailbunny noodleboy and gir on my work shirt now. drew them today. failed attempt to quit smoking again. trying again after this pack is gone. i feel better when i dont smoke. but i get so bored and i eat alot. especially oranges. had an apple today and didnt die. throat was tingly though. i think im more allergic to the pesticides than actual apples. this tickles me where i pee. i now know what too little too late means. should have told her in june. was so distracted. unrequited doesnt hurt as bad as one might think. just want the best for the chellley and ill be a happy monkey.my daughter was super gassy on sunday. i only get her once a week but shes awesome. sick alot though. hope she doesnt get something serious. my sinuses hurt. new favorite anime is fullmetal alchemist. still love the songs in bebop though. my feet stink. think i also caught my daughters gassiness today....but it could be all the oranges i ate. headache. im kinda babbling. havent drawn anything worthwhile in a long time. can hardly sketch x23, or even noodle boy anymore. too much noise. i need to work more. just to have something to do. would like to have a second job by thanksgiving.... i dont like holidays.id rather work on those days than sit around feeling lonely. only family i have lives with her mother and isnt even 2 yet. i miss my daughter 6 days out of the week and it kills me when i hafta take her home on sunday nights. but for those few hours im the happiest man alive. face hurts from smiling too much once a week. i love it. have an overwhelming NEED to act. in a play. in a movie. ANYTHING. im babbling right now, but this is my blog and i dont care whether or not you read it. its more for me at this point. should write something....havent because ive had nothing personal to say. i dont mean a blog. i mean a book. one day people will be proud to know me. one day ill be proud to know myself. pugs and downs syndrome kids have the same face. im goin to hell for that. foot so itchy. i think im tired. no cohesive thought. totally sober in case you were wondering by the way. said awful thing to jenn in october. feel horrible about it. i miss her. she always made me smile no matter how bad a mood i was in. i wasnt me in october. was so exhausted. no time to reboot. now...with only one job. i think i sleep too much. i hafta work. ive got nothing else to do. kinda horrible isnt it? ::cough:: im gonna try that sleep thing. ill be on more i promise.


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