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I have 2 minutes before I have to leave for class... and I'm spending it smoking (but of course!) and thinking about people. Someone in particular.











How I miss him.
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P.S. I just edited my poem below into its completely finished form. Tell me what you think.
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lolablu:
I love love LOVE the last stanza of that poem.
4m:
Thanks for the well wishes about my eyes kiss So what path did you stumble down to manage finding me as a friend on SG? Your profile sounds pretty sexy/crazy/cool, so I'm glad to have you aboard this journey. smile
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I just wrote this poem now:


wandering star 5-9-05

so that’s it –
no more coy little smiles
with promises of more
to cum
between my legs,
no more red lacy panties
with their screams for attention
- at all the right times -
and how they distracted your lips
- for hours on end -
in that seductive little dance
of temptation
and fireworks...
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johnsonboy:
I like it more than I've liked other poems of yours...it's direct and personal. I like the mysterious holes in he ceiling...it's a good image that adds some depth.
Also, it made me kind want to have some sex...but there's also some hard-earned wisdom in it. things do only last so long...
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::Sigh::



So begins another week. To start it off right, I got high this morning on some really tasty greens and spent an hour contemplating the trials and tribulations of my little life. All while staring with acute detail at the progress of my new painting (the one I mentioned with the bleeding heart and with the future inscription of my favorite quote and personal...
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ari:
Hahahaha.. suicide cult group member here. shocked

Well... at least there's a possibility that you made them feel more unconfortable with the fact that instead you were looking at naked women everyday... (Well, 2 naked women at least everyday..) Hopefully you did that.

Awwww. blush
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johnsonboy:
Moderation is ok, but there is more to life than that.
It might be good to help a person live longer. I'm not sure. I'm not even sure that's much of a reason to be moderate.
Actually, I find your passion kind of inspiring. You remind me of a girlfriend I once had. She was passionate about everything.
Life with her was good, but it was also a lot of work.
I don't know that it's fair to say which kind of life is better.
If you feel like doing something, or doing it a certain way, follow your instincts.
You'll know when it's time to change. It becomes obvious at a certain point. the thing is, it always changes.
lolablu:
I too love naked girls.
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I am a glamorous, self-involved, make-up loving, fishnet-wearing, drug-using, addiction WHORE!!


My personal motto has become, like many rock 'n rollers before me:

"LIVE FAST, DIE YOUNG, AND LEAVE BEHIND A PRETTY CORPSE."

Yet lately, I have come to realize the sad, karma-induced consequences of such a self-serving motto. Because I have only been thinking of myself and my issues and my needs and my...
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jimmy_heartcore:
That girl is Dyme. She is fucking uber hot. Annnnd - thank you. YOU are lovely.

// Jimmy
xip:
This makes me realize that I need to call my parents more often.

I've been the exact opposite lately... completely involved in taking care of other people and making sure everyone ELSE is ok, never asking for help, always trying to be the adult and keep a stiff upper-lip while never telling anyone my problems or opening up or asking for help.... and as a result, lately I've been feeling more and more frustrated and isolated

I suppose this is the other side of the spectrum
xip
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I took the Club Kids quiz:
Which of Michael Alig's Club Kids are you?


"You are Michael Alig. You are king of the Club Kids. You are the crack-smoking gay party promoter with a penchant for hotpants, red lipstick and Andy Worhol. You created some of the wildest parties this country has ever seen. You had it all.. fame, money,.. men. So what if you...
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So I'm sitting here, quietly in my room, having just woken up and feeling like my head was smashed in with a hammer. I smoked so much last night, I couldn't see straight. My therapist is right - I do self-medicate. Duh. What else can I do? When my heart's been drop-kicked and crushed to smithereens - yet again - I don't know how to...
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johnsonboy:
the Gods are laughing. I think that's all they really do, maybe because of all the nectar and ambrosia.
thanks for checking my art. That site has been really good for me. My site statistics are growing quickly.
If I had to choose between you and work, I think I'd probably not get much work done.
artsaves1228:
thank u for the comment i really appreciate it!!!! biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin miao!!
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I am broken-hearted.

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Someone I care about doesn't like me anymore. How sad. I feel so unloved... unloveable...and to think I actually tried this time... I really felt like I was more of myself than I have ever been with other guys. Maybe the age difference is too much. There's definitely a difference in our priorities. He chose "work" over me. If...
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sddrizzt:
I am sorry that someone was not able to see and Appreciate you for who you are. alot of my friends tell me that it is better to have loved then never to have loved at all. And I can see thier point, but it gets so tireing trying all the time. just to have it fail on you. Some say that we are not meant to be with one person that it not natural to be with one person your entire life, because we change and we cannot expect those around us to change with us or in the same ways. so how can we expect love to always be there. I am starting to believe that friends are the best things to have in your life. there is a seperation there a slight barrer to protect one another, that you do not have in a full out love afair. but yet there is a closeness that that seems to grow. because lets face it you can tell your best friends things you would not share with a boyfriend or husband girlfriend or wife. I am sorry for your loss gorgeous. I pray to the fates that your heart grows stronger from this.
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*RaNDoM ThOuGhTS:*


1. I love the shrimp and lobster tacos at PB Bar & Grill on Taco Tuesdays! I also have an unhealthy obsession with chocolate and cheese. Not together though. Oh, and WINE. I adore wine. Makes me feel sophisticated, haha.

2. Yesterday, my new 30ish neighbor from the Czech Republic was so drunk out of his mind that not only couldn't...
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I'm fucked up right now... so what else is new?? I swear my neighbors talked me into it... talked me into 2 glasses of wine and a big, fat spliff that is!!! The joint was calling to me! It was against my will!! haha. Who am I kidding? Yeah, I may have a paper, a midterm, and 3 classes tomorrow starting at 9:30 am, but...
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likwid_todd:
oh my god. you and i love the exact same women (especially adriana and angelina). love love

nice pic by the way. i prefer procrastination actually. all my best ideas seem to flow when i'm in a time crunch.

ARRR!!!
lolablu:
Yes, things look quite dramatic right now. The whole story of what's going on lately, with me and with practically everyone I know, is dramatic. The funny thing? I feel quite normal and at peace. Like at the eye of a storm.
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mana:
Oh thank you. You are lovely. But I don't have the nosering no morefrown
avantgarde:
Reminds me of that Blind Mellon video.