cakemix

still puking and crying - can't hold anything in my stomack but at least i have pretty new lingerie. my friends dragged me off for sea air today so i took them to a girlie shop that has luckily re-stocked its toys...altho unlucky for me as my credit card was declined. so my friends bought me the lingerie and i called the x boy to buy me the cutest dildo i've ever seen! its pale frosty blue and has red heart shaped glittery confetti suspended in it...he said yes but then wouldn't give over his credit card details. so obviously didn't mean to buy it for me. i thought it would be a perfect parting gift as friday night he told me no way never ever again - but somehow its still ok for him to invade my sg space and sign up after he dumps me...

also at the shop was a nice shirt that said 'superstar spanker' on it. it made me think of the boy and i wanted to buy one for him but got one for my california spanking boy instead. will send it back with my cousin when she is here next week. hope he likes it i'm trying to appease him in any way i can.

so tomoro i have another tattoo appt. more of the 'indulgent' pain from xed. actually found a nice greeting card of him at the girlie shop. somehow made me even sadder than i was already. now that really doesn't make any more sense than anything else right now