its 4am in london 
i've been getting tattooed since 7pm
just got home and can't bend my leg but its worth it and i'm lucky that xed didn't mind staying up with me all night.
'indulgent pain'
is how he described what i was doing tonight
i don't know how to describe it but everything hurts. right arm and right leg both tattooed this last week but i need the pain. it gives me something to focus on rather than sliding down deeper - at least for the hours its happening...
swordboy is back in london from tues-thurs, and of course i'll be seeing him, but its not the same. none of them are the same as being with someone you love. even if they don't love you
well i'm off to brighton tomoro. a friend who is worried about me has actually got a rental car and wants to get me out of london 'for my own good'... i think its a wasted trip myself.
i've been getting tattooed since 7pm
just got home and can't bend my leg but its worth it and i'm lucky that xed didn't mind staying up with me all night.
'indulgent pain'
is how he described what i was doing tonight
i don't know how to describe it but everything hurts. right arm and right leg both tattooed this last week but i need the pain. it gives me something to focus on rather than sliding down deeper - at least for the hours its happening...
swordboy is back in london from tues-thurs, and of course i'll be seeing him, but its not the same. none of them are the same as being with someone you love. even if they don't love you
well i'm off to brighton tomoro. a friend who is worried about me has actually got a rental car and wants to get me out of london 'for my own good'... i think its a wasted trip myself.
brighton is cool