Thursday Apr 11, 2013

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Hey my favorite people smile

So THANK YOU is in order, come on biggrinbiggrinbiggrinbiggrinbiggrin I'm so happy for the love on my set. Thanks so much for the support! Since 2007 and I never gave up because of YOU kisskisskisskisskiss



but still,

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About my life (skip it if you don't care).

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I'm still unemployed I quit the shitty, non paid, non learning at all, crappy internship. I want to motivate myself to forfill my constantly need for life and love for all. In order to do that I need that finally the cosmos hears my prayers. Of course I'm doing my part, I started a new (hopefully more serene) phase, I started to think of living long and not wasting time with fear and fullishness. I started by quiting the cigarrete addiction, I still smoke joints though. I started drinking much less, and I started to motivate myself to start working out (after 14 years it aint easy). I started p90x 3 times now, never went past the 1st week, but I hope and want, because it's all I've to make it all 90 days.
On another note which probably is the most life changing. I decided I can't continue to live my life depressed, missing something I can't comprehend, fighting in fights I can't win, trying to contol what I can't control, and needing due to that medication.
I always knew I was spiritual, although my scientific side always questions everything. But I always believed something was good and pure and inside and all around us, connecting us. Call it God, faith, I don't care. I know there's somethings I can't control but I can learn to listen to this energy better, I can control how it affects me. I want that. Freedom from fear. smile
Also I need to write, finish one of my unfinished books, start another, do short stories, something. I've been blocked because I can't see with all this noisy crap life buzzing around me. I want to learn about me and in that find me and start again. Start writing forever.

Reality... I need money to go spend 4 mths in a ashram in India and I've no money frown I need a job. But I've to keep the faith in this possibility so I'm moving on, started my meditation, mantras, I want to start my apprenticeshio so that I'm ready for the harshness and life shaking India.



A cute short vid of me eating cheese... I do love it ! tongue



Also I know you've to see a bit of skin, but before let me just leave a note to my fellow SG blush



AND NOW (drum rolls) Caia in a some what strip dance tongue blush biggrin



Hahah

Ok for those of you that didn't read anything before, this is me in my first week of p90x smile





sorry for all the sweatiness and non makeup look blush

After comes the quick shower before leaving home (edit)




Last I'm also on ZIvity and with 2 super hot new sets by ffphoto, below a preview of one of them wink

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I have 5 invites to the site to give away for free if anyone wants one. I trade them for VOTES on my set[s]. I have 5 live sets at this point and they've have additional bonus photos, some of those are naughty, which I'll give away in exchange for a certain number of votes, just check my page. [Votes are $1/each]
So who wants to trade? Who will vote for me, and get some goodies in their inbox? Send me that email!





And that's it folks biggrin



Muchas gracias for being there kisskisskiss


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Facebook;Tumblr; IG @caiasuicide, haha how original blush

Want to make me childlike happy love blush, I love presents in the mail
sexy stuff wishlist
cute stuff wishlist
book wishlist
(I will send thank you prints if I've an adress)

VIEW 25 of 55 COMMENTS
pthalo:
that's the company. ^_^ i could very easily do the order myself, and ship it to portugal as soon as i receive it. wink you would just have to tell me what you'd like, and we'd have to do it through paypal.
opaque:
You don't look like you need a challenge the way I do wink

I'm doing the turbo fire one

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