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im a selfish cow and sometimes i say stupid things
that is, when i am not saying reallly really stupid things.

i hate my haircut.

i died it with box die but it lied! so now i also hate my hair color too. i deserve it.

yesterday i had such an incredible night.

i learned that if one is to quote nitzche one must know the exact quote. i also inanvertedly watched a lot of jackass. which restored my hatred in people.

then i realised how many dumb things i say, and how many people i hurt.

and how nice it is just to get a hug.

i have two large priorities.
1) move
or
2) get a car.

both would mean freedom that i lack

i currently am camping in my parents living room behind their couch on a mattress on the floor, i have a bed, but whats the point of putting it toghether?

i have forgoten the meaning of privacy

and i hate it here.
i hate this city soo much
i hate that my job doesnt pay me more.

i need to leave.
come with me

we will build a little boat and row until we tire, and whilst standing on the ocean we'll fly a kite and catch a star and stay in bed until we die.

i need to make my own coffin.
ive been looking and all the ones available are overpriced and generic. im going to make a disco ball coffin.

if i dont finish it in time, atleast make sure im covered in daisies. i wish they would burry me naked. but they wont.

too much work means not enough food. i found myself asking : "is this the smallest size you have? they feel really big"

and i stopped. was that me?
little butterball me cant fit in store jeans.
that all will change in a few weeks
i am currently living on caramel popcorn.

because afterall storebought things make me happy.
the noise of the mall numbs me.

come over and cut my hair.