Saw a friend do this on his journal and figured "Eh what the hell......."
1) Despite my seemingly infinite ego, I'm overtly insecure about my judgment, physique and talent.
2) I've hurt more people than I've helped, and causing others any type of pain torments me 10 fold. Explains the voices in my head
3) I'm cursed with bad teeth and a fucked up hairline which both I got from my dad. Wonder why my smile is so "perfect"? It costs THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS!!
4) I've been bald since I was 18 and a half. As soon as I got the balls to be experimentive with my hair, it said "fuck you I don't need this shit" and left.....
5) I fell into rapping when I was 14 via envy and a desire to be noticed, for once, in a good way.
6) On some level, I know I only went to college to make my mom happy. Not to find myself, I know who I am and what I want.
7) I've never been in an actual fight in my life. Been close several times, but no fists ever swung.
8) I watched my first porn movie at the age of 4. Don't worry, I didn't realize what it was till later in life. That's what happens when you leave a tape with a handwritten label of "Cinderella" in a room with a smart kid with a TV and VCR
9) I love my grandmother more than my real mom. In ways, I feel she did more to RAISE me than my mom did. All my mom did was PROVIDE. Which is why I feel more connected to my grandmom than my own mother.
10) I envy people with actual families. I only have relatives I see maybe twice a year. And siblings I barely ever see.
11) I need to feel like I have a purpose or a function, or I'll feel useless. Leaving me with no job or direction for myself is the quickest way to drive me crazy.
12) Revenge is my favorite word in the English language. Anyone who knows me knows that.
13) I've had 2 nervous breakdowns in my life that I know of.......once in the summer of 97, and the other during my last semester in college. I think every other time they were just "mini-breakdowns"
14) I fear all the time that I've stay single forever because I can't take the company of any one person for longer than 48 straight hours.
15) I believe true love hits you only once in your life. After that, it's only at most 90 percent because you're still a little scarred from that first time.
16) I don't trust anyone fully. Not even myself.
17) I wish I had a real father in my life, but I DON'T wish I had my REAL father in my life. Make sense?
18) I have no clue where I'm going to be when I'm 30. All I hope is that it's not in this city
19) The person that's had the most influence over my emotional growth in my life was my ex-fiancee Chi-Chi. The day I learned we could never been together in this lifetime (June 30th 2002) a piece of me died. I know that for a fact.
20) I'd give everything I am and have for a person that loves me for who I am. Not what they think I will be, or should be.
1) Despite my seemingly infinite ego, I'm overtly insecure about my judgment, physique and talent.
2) I've hurt more people than I've helped, and causing others any type of pain torments me 10 fold. Explains the voices in my head
3) I'm cursed with bad teeth and a fucked up hairline which both I got from my dad. Wonder why my smile is so "perfect"? It costs THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS!!
4) I've been bald since I was 18 and a half. As soon as I got the balls to be experimentive with my hair, it said "fuck you I don't need this shit" and left.....
5) I fell into rapping when I was 14 via envy and a desire to be noticed, for once, in a good way.
6) On some level, I know I only went to college to make my mom happy. Not to find myself, I know who I am and what I want.
7) I've never been in an actual fight in my life. Been close several times, but no fists ever swung.
8) I watched my first porn movie at the age of 4. Don't worry, I didn't realize what it was till later in life. That's what happens when you leave a tape with a handwritten label of "Cinderella" in a room with a smart kid with a TV and VCR
9) I love my grandmother more than my real mom. In ways, I feel she did more to RAISE me than my mom did. All my mom did was PROVIDE. Which is why I feel more connected to my grandmom than my own mother.
10) I envy people with actual families. I only have relatives I see maybe twice a year. And siblings I barely ever see.
11) I need to feel like I have a purpose or a function, or I'll feel useless. Leaving me with no job or direction for myself is the quickest way to drive me crazy.
12) Revenge is my favorite word in the English language. Anyone who knows me knows that.
13) I've had 2 nervous breakdowns in my life that I know of.......once in the summer of 97, and the other during my last semester in college. I think every other time they were just "mini-breakdowns"
14) I fear all the time that I've stay single forever because I can't take the company of any one person for longer than 48 straight hours.
15) I believe true love hits you only once in your life. After that, it's only at most 90 percent because you're still a little scarred from that first time.
16) I don't trust anyone fully. Not even myself.
17) I wish I had a real father in my life, but I DON'T wish I had my REAL father in my life. Make sense?
18) I have no clue where I'm going to be when I'm 30. All I hope is that it's not in this city
19) The person that's had the most influence over my emotional growth in my life was my ex-fiancee Chi-Chi. The day I learned we could never been together in this lifetime (June 30th 2002) a piece of me died. I know that for a fact.
20) I'd give everything I am and have for a person that loves me for who I am. Not what they think I will be, or should be.
regarding your entry, I think I want to date you...really. I have read tons of these "20 things about myself" entries and never been so touched or left feeling inquisitive about the person.
also:
<--taco.