buddhak

Hang in there, man.

Thank you for the comment! love
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kisses!

you're looking for moments of infinity (like in perks). It's normal to be nostalgic, especially about past loves and lovers. You aren't damaged goods, not by anymeans. You can't always wait for "somedays", sometimes you have to make it TODAY, and only you can do that. I can relate to your blog in the context of Victoria. She doesn't even toss bread crumbs of maybes. It could be better, this whole thing, but it could also be worse. I wish I could bottle you some happy so you can spoon feed it to yourself when ever you need. my offer still stands..... just want to take it slow, and no commitment besides what we have currently as friends. Ash is not the be all end all. I know she is special to you, that your feelings are strong, but it's not your fault that she is not in the same place you are emotionally right now. I really don't think she think she's living beyond day to day, and it's hard to have any inkling of what the future holds when you live day to day. It's prety mch impossible to see the whole picture with that kind of tunnel vision. And again, it is not an indication of you, of not being good enough or enough. She doesn't know what she wants, and people who don't see beyond the immediate future are hard to deal with. Victoria is falling in that category right now, making plans hour to hour, day to day, then forgetting the promises she made. i feel unimportant, rejected. Me and you are very much alike in the sense that we take pretty much everything personal. And that is dangerous when you have a path, any form of set goal, to be with someone who is not emotionally or intellectually equal .
ok damn, this is long and my hands hurt and Adriane wants me to rub her back. Call me soon.