Stop me if I told you this before.
Five years ago I had left Texas for Charlottesville, Virginia. My only friend was two hours away in Washington DC. She invited me up for Christmas, but I decided to stay at my apartment. I was off from work from Dec. 24 to Jan. 2. I bought a bottle of vodka, whisky, and a case of beer. I got a bag of pot. I bought a weeks worth of food, milk and juice. I rented 35+ hours of movies and few more of porn. I got two cartons of smokes. My plan was to not leave the house for a full week. To not bath, to let the hygeine slide, to not talk to anyone. To wallow in my depression and filth and bad habits for a week and see what I figure out about myself.
I hate this time of year. My birthday, most of my break ups with girls, my mom's death, all happened in December. I never want to be around anyone, but I get so lonely when I'm not around anyone. Tonight I'm drinking maker's mark and diet pepsi by myself. Soon I'll have some frozen pizza and watch Harry Potter with my dog. I only have one day to wallow this time.
Here's to you. I hope you are doing ok, and that you don't have a bad time of it. I'm sorry that I'm not there for you. Maybe some day I'll figure myself out and won't have to repeat this again.
Until then, take care.
Five years ago I had left Texas for Charlottesville, Virginia. My only friend was two hours away in Washington DC. She invited me up for Christmas, but I decided to stay at my apartment. I was off from work from Dec. 24 to Jan. 2. I bought a bottle of vodka, whisky, and a case of beer. I got a bag of pot. I bought a weeks worth of food, milk and juice. I rented 35+ hours of movies and few more of porn. I got two cartons of smokes. My plan was to not leave the house for a full week. To not bath, to let the hygeine slide, to not talk to anyone. To wallow in my depression and filth and bad habits for a week and see what I figure out about myself.
I hate this time of year. My birthday, most of my break ups with girls, my mom's death, all happened in December. I never want to be around anyone, but I get so lonely when I'm not around anyone. Tonight I'm drinking maker's mark and diet pepsi by myself. Soon I'll have some frozen pizza and watch Harry Potter with my dog. I only have one day to wallow this time.
Here's to you. I hope you are doing ok, and that you don't have a bad time of it. I'm sorry that I'm not there for you. Maybe some day I'll figure myself out and won't have to repeat this again.
Until then, take care.
Are YOU doing ok?
merry christmas