Jesus I've been gone awhile. Last nite I was stoned as fuck and was browsing. Ended up at SG and re-activated my account mere days before my term was up. I think this site is gonna rock even more once my broadband conection is ready on the 29th. Cause 56k is just way too slow. A lot has been going on. Got a new job,...
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Her eyes like ice, misdirected, but not losing sight. Her soul like fire. Wanting to explode, to explore the depths of pain, but afraid to let go. I melt in her presence. Her stare burns into my heart. Her smell, her touch, her look, so godly. Like a fallen angel, like a gift from the heavens. This I decree. For she is truly of...
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Her eyes like ice, misdirected, but not losing sight. Her soul like fire. Wanting to explode, to explore the depths of pain, but afraid to let go. I melt in her presence. Her stare burns into my heart. Her smell, her touch, her look, so godly. Like a fallen angel, like a gift from the heavens. This I decree. For she is truly of...
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brokenalice:
nice collage 
scattershot:
duejfa I ahvena;t taked to you in like forever whats up tiwht atht
Work was so totally chill. I'm prolly quiting tho, Trying to get a job at a local wholesaler. They START at 10$ an hour. That's more than I make now after almost 4 years and like 5 rasies. wtf Anyway, listening to Evanescence. Haven't play their CD for quite awhile. Good stuff!! *Am I too lost to be saved*
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trinityy:
that sucks no weed ahh i would go insane!
opahl:
Good luck getting the new job!!
I don't like the Evanescence that's played on the radio all the time, what's the rest of their music like?
I don't like the Evanescence that's played on the radio all the time, what's the rest of their music like?
Bed time. One more day then off a day. Only work Monday for six hours. My job and retail in general is becoming tiresome. I wanna become a serial killer. 
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broken_reality:
hehehehhehe Or just stick to textual descriptions of extreme violence and sex. Now that I've upgraded to XP I had no choice but to re-install Word Perfect Office 2002 as my old DOS version ceased to function properly. With this cool skin it looks badass (before when I tried to write with it there was an awful white background with black text). My new XP skin is way darker! Very cool.
Now that I've upgraded to XP I had no choice but to re-install Word Perfect Office 2002 as my old DOS version ceased to function properly. With this cool skin it looks badass (before when I tried to write with it there was an awful white background with black text). My new XP skin is way darker! Very cool.
brokenalice:
what serial killers do you like?
there's a wayne gacy movie coming out on video...
there's a wayne gacy movie coming out on video...
Well I bought WindowsXP. The upgrade version for 100$ at my work. Got my discount! d00d it's sweet! Got a kick ass skin. My norton apps got fucked tho so am downloading replacements (no more norton!). Everything else went smooth! Top notch program. Now I've got at least a sliver of respect for Bill Gates but NOT much. hehhehhehehehe
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broken_reality:
I have norton av and firewall (well had). They never did work quite rite. Norton Utilities 2002 wouldn't even install correctly on XP so I was like "fuck it" and wiped it and got me "Registry Mechanic" (all I ever used from norton util was windoctor anyway) 
scattershot:
the manson song has a video out and I've seen the video on much music (canadian MTV) you could probably get the video and or song on something like kazaa or things like that
Thinking of getting windows xp but dunno. Have to see how much it is and shit. Course a friend has it. Anyway, one more day then off thursday. Still have no motivation or inspiration....gotta find a place to live. Gotta start LIVING. I should move to Portland with my bro and the HOME of suicidegirls!! That would rock!
Anyway, one more day then off thursday. Still have no motivation or inspiration....gotta find a place to live. Gotta start LIVING. I should move to Portland with my bro and the HOME of suicidegirls!! That would rock!
scattershot:
that would rock ... I also have to start living ... but my damn night job is getting in the way... although I think that I am going to attend a good bye house party on friday *knock on wood*
broken_reality:
I couldn't work a nite job. Nitetime is MY time! I did work 10pm-6am once tho to help with inventory. That was pretty cool...one of my co-workers who also helped out said he had been up for like 36 hours. d00d was tripping. hehehehe
Well today was my first day back after a week off. It was uneventful. Mostly clueless customers buying random shit for no purpose other than to spend their money. Saw some cuties since the kids are off school which was nice. Overall a VERY chill day....I did sell the Evanescence CD "Fallen" and told the customer how awesome it is. I always comment when people...
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frankie18:
ok ive been listening to fallen all day. i do this thing when i get a new cd. i listen to it straight for like a week until i feel like i really know the cd. then it goes into rotation. ive been singing everybodys fool all day.
broken_reality:
hehehe I played it for like 3 weeks straight. Ever heard of Bella Morte? I played their new CD "The Quiet" for like a month.
My thoughts betray me. The demons strengthen their grasp on my soul. The end is near. I don't know how much longer I will last...I mean sometimes I think if I'm gonna die anyway then what does it matter when or if it's by my own hand....I'm gonna go sleep. Escape from this reality if only for a few hours....
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scattershot:
dude writing is a good release ...but cutting yourself? ... I won't pretend to understand cuz thats gotten me into a lot of trouble before .. I'll just say that I hope that hasn't become a habit. I used to write tonnes too but I haven't in a while, now that school is done for the summer maybe I can start up something again.
and yeah I don't want to change either ... but a few people think Im in drastic need of change.
good luck with all this and we're all here for you.
and yeah I don't want to change either ... but a few people think Im in drastic need of change.
good luck with all this and we're all here for you.
broken_reality:
I cut my wrist back in 1995 late at nite one time...some small cuts but it bled a lot. I was very depressed. Stayed up all nite, slept all day. Did nothing. Didn't care. Full of rage. Ended up in a mental hospital for a couple weeks. I haven't done it again......what kind of stuff do you write? I can't seem to write anything other than sex and violence....
I'm taking a week off work. Totally burnt out....have had a great time so far. Smoked some good herb, chilled out. Got my paperwork all caught up. Gonna go out to eat tonite with my bud at this cool mexican place across town...then smoke some more herb (have enuf left for like one more bowl).
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broken_reality:
I hear that! That's why I told them I stick to weed and sometimes shrooms. Nothing else...
trinityy:
pills are my weakness as well.. weed and pills mmhmm
d00d I had a cool dream this morning!! There was this huge room like a gym or something FILLED with naked chicks wearing like little pieces of leather and bondage gear. They were all Suicidegirls!! Hundreds of them! I was naked too and with my bro. We went into the room and had to wait to see if one of the girls "chose" us to...
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broken_reality:
truncated I dunno I just feel like my life is going no where. Sometimes I feel like not doing anything cause in the back of my head I'm thinking I'm just gonna kill myself anyway so what's the point....my job is a dead end, my shrink can kiss my ass, etc....
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trinityy:
try and keep your head up!!! pls! i know how you feel. i will talk to you more about this when i see on aim! but pls stay strong and keep your head up!
*big hugs*
trin
*big hugs*
trin
smackdown was cool this week. I like the japanese mafia they did with tajiri and john cena kicks so much ass its rediculous. Hes gonna be huge in the near future. and Angle is the greatest wrestler of his generation.