broken_machine

life is life. today was a pretty fucked up day. things didnt go as well as planned and we got informed of a bunch of shit. you know. being military has its perks and its major flaws. i dont know what out weighs the other. things need to improve in my life. i find myself losing more and more of who i used to be and becoming something i never swore i would become. soul searching is pointless if you cant find your soul. but i try still enough. nothing seems to excite me anymore. everything that used to hold my intrest no longer does. and things that i thought would never be intresting to me or even fun are becoming more and more appealing. i am conforming to the social norm? or am i just loosing myself a little everyday. i wonder...