brodie

i feel so much older then 23. i'm trying to firgure out where all the years went. i don't feel i have anything to really look forward to. i try not to make any plans because i never think they'll fall through. and i don't think i'll ever have another meaningful relationship, and i don't even care. i guess i've come to accept that. i know that in a few years maybe a year i won't know the people i know now, but i'll have new friends and that i won't work in the same job, but have a different one. everything will basically be the same just with different people and places. i guess i shouldn't lose hope. it's human nature to have hope for a bright future, but i think my life will be the same script day after day, year after year, until my story's done.