Summer is here. Not that you would know by the weather here in sunny Milwaukee. It's just after noon and it is grey outside. I should go running but, I'm being lazy. The running thing causes internal dialogue. There is the person I am currently and the person i aspire to be. The person I aspire to be is going to take a lot of work. I have worked very hard to get where I am now. Sometimes I want to take a break from my many personal desires. However my ambitions define me. I'm a painter because I love art. I also love science. Too much art makes me need a science fix. I'm thinking of picking up calculus in the fall or spring. I like to exercise as well. I have a need for exercise, I should say. The problem comes from wanting all of these things and more. Time becomes an issue and I still need to work to feed myself. Sooo... That's enough. I have to paint, play guitar, work out, make dinner, and stain some doors. Oh yeah, that reminds me. A trip to the hardware store too. I'm not complaining, although it sounds as if I am. Writing this just helps me process everything. These are the things that make me happy. Tired but happy.