brittymon

Gods Gift...

Banana Kush...

i don't feel good enough for myself. about myself and what i do. my art is shit and i do nothing with it. i make NOTHING off what i do because im a fucking retard. not being a 'businessman' but a lost creative soul who is wasting there so little time here...
i hate committing to things i think. and more then anything, id like to have something worth committing to. but because every time i do. i screw it up(witch herts more) and i end up hated/stranded/neglected/pushed away.. in the end. and i don't like putting so much time and effort into something/someone because of these constant pattens. im constantly in doubt and too 'negative'...everything just blows up in my face
my chest physically hurts from this emptiness in my life. this fucking Void...