bridgetwnpeddler

jesus christ. why all the drama between the two of you? from these entries it doesn't really sound like it's worth it. granted this is just a minor detail of the full picture. take care of yourself sweetie. good luck with the next encounter.

I think you are absolutely right. I think we all go through phases in our lives where we need very different things....sometimes we need a serious relationship, sometimes, we need a good friend, sometimes we need someone to help take our minds off of someone else that has hurt us. I think the conflicting part is finding someone who needs that same thing.

I'm really glad that I could make you feel at least a little better! Any exciting Thanksgiving plans?

thanks sweetie. you too, in the sleeping well.

i'm going home for a couple of weeks over christmas. thanksgiving was never a huge deal for the hughes family anyway. i've had a few good ones with my friends though; this year it seems they all have other agendas.

yes...bad sean. But, seeing as how it is your day for another 4 hours and 15 minutes, it must be allowed.

I'm afraid I don't know the reference, or how you feel (your most recent entry).

Getting up early for work sucks, doesn't it? I have to work at 5 am most of the time, which means getting up around 4:20...it's pretty disgusting. Nobody should have to get up that early! If I changed jobs, I'm not really sure what to do...my co-worker said she thinks I could easily move to another coffee shop and become an assistant manager pretty quickly, but I also have bank teller experience, so I might want to pursue that, since the pay is pretty good.

yup...i am their pushover, their secretary, their bitch, their banker, who does not get paid nearly enough.

but enough of my ramblings...hehe. We decided today was your day.

no, I actually hate my job. It's not really the job itself, I don't mind being a barista, but the management at that place is just so bad, it's almost unbearable. I need a new job, but I've been there for almost two and a half years, and I think I'm afraid of change.

Yup. Happy Sean Day.

aaah, but at least they had you around to fix things quickly, right?

There ain't nothin like a little internet conversation to help take your mind off something! In fact, I kinda like the thought of being someone's hobby....

you intrigue me

mmmm, homemade soup....it's surprising how good that sounds considering i can't taste anything! my dad has been pampering me pretty well, so that's been good. i know, a weel ago, i would have thought laying around watching movies and tv all day would be wonderful...but i've definitely got my fair share of it.

I think I will just take it easy this weekend...I've got today and tomorrow off, and I have to go back to work Sunday, so I really want to be completely well when I go back to work. I might go have dinner tonight with a friend, I'm kinda getting cabin fever around here!

Good luck with Heidi, I know it's hard, but I think if you stick with it, you'll be so much happier with yourself in the end. At least that's what I'm telling myself. I'm tired of being disappointed with my actions and decisions, so I'm trying to keep that in mind. As far as my situation goes, I'm doing fine thus far. Haven't gone into any relapse modes yet But seriously, you can do it. Be strong. Maybe pick up a new hobby, and leave the past behind.

i love stories about stupid people, please share...

sounds like you're not out of the woods yet, she still has plenty of time to come crawling back before thanksgiving. good luck. i think they've closed down the rebound store, i look for one myself from time to time, but lately i've found caffeine, the gym, and shopping to be very satisfying (or at least distracting), along with a few purchases from spartacus...

well i'm sure if you did the same you'd get the same reaction, but that's not the kind of thing i'm really looking for anyway.

Thanks