okay so work is growing out of control. but at least the days go by fast I was actually kind of bored for awhile and it left me far.. far too much time to just sit and think all day. This is much.. much better.
man I have hit a serious Heidi funk over the last week or so and it hit hard this weekend. I don't know why.
I have some maybe's... maybe because the girl I met a few weeks back I now realize is not going to go anywhere and there are aspects of my interaction with her that remind me of Heidi (she is a not... Read More
i'm sorry you are having such a tough time moving on. i wish i could offer you some wise advice or words of wisdom to make it all better, but unfortunately I don't. it will get better, even though it seems like it won't. maybe picking up your car tomorrow will help make you feel better...go out and play and take your mind off your pain.
i hope the surgery you have scheduled isn't anything serious. i hope it goes well.
I woke up to a very intense dream about miss Heidi today. After that I realized that today is 3 months to the day since I walked out of the relationship. I thought I would feel better and not care about it all by now.... but obviously I still care.
I decided to treat myself early to a little... Read More
sad. do we lie to those we love? why? fear? control?
is it all just too difficult...
hrrrrmmmmm.....
PS. I think I am going through a full blown mid life crisis, the house is out of the question until I know more about my future job status post merger. In the meantime:
i have found as well that busy is good. now if i could just get a little more busy....