Okay Update today. I went away for the weekend but I am absolutely miserable. I do not know why... maybe that part of me that was hoping she was gonna want me or missed me as much as I missed her is dying... and it is a painful horrible death. I just want to go home curl up and... fuck I don't know. Getting free of this woman is like breaking a fucking heroin addiction for me. This sucks.
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Living here is not making things easy on me. I just see things that you should not see and it makes it difficult.
So Spring Break for Heidi and have not seen her all week, was hoping that she might stay away. Last night was the night she was going to go camping with Jeff till she was rebuffed on that plan and he cancelled because he did not want to be on a solo trip with her.
So as I am leaving last night to go out for a bit Heidi pulls up to go to the Cracker pub. Interesting, she NEVER comes on her own and Val is not there and neither is Jeff. That kind of peaked my interest but I was on my way away. Later I found out that Val and her Husband came and were hanging with Heidi.
I come home at 11pm and her car is still there. Weird, she never stays there that long (Val's car is nowhere to be seen) and she always takes her car when she goes places. She loves her car. She would have to be pretty drunk or have someone else taking her to leave her car.
Wake up this morning and??? HER FUCKING CAR IS STILL THERE!!!!!
Nice statement for me. She comes to the pub meets ???? then goes and spends the night with them. Leaving it pretty obvious for me.
Now maybe this is not a statement directed at me. But it fucking kills me none the less to have to see it and know what it means or ate least what my poor mind in trying to forget about her thinks it means.
Oh and just to make it nice, I am standing outside this morning talking to my neighbor when a pickup pulls up and drops miss Heidi off at her car at 7:45am. Grrr.... damn coincidences.
GOD DAMN MANIPULATIVE BITCH!!!!!!!!
FUCK.
I feel miserable today.
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Living here is not making things easy on me. I just see things that you should not see and it makes it difficult.
So Spring Break for Heidi and have not seen her all week, was hoping that she might stay away. Last night was the night she was going to go camping with Jeff till she was rebuffed on that plan and he cancelled because he did not want to be on a solo trip with her.
So as I am leaving last night to go out for a bit Heidi pulls up to go to the Cracker pub. Interesting, she NEVER comes on her own and Val is not there and neither is Jeff. That kind of peaked my interest but I was on my way away. Later I found out that Val and her Husband came and were hanging with Heidi.
I come home at 11pm and her car is still there. Weird, she never stays there that long (Val's car is nowhere to be seen) and she always takes her car when she goes places. She loves her car. She would have to be pretty drunk or have someone else taking her to leave her car.
Wake up this morning and??? HER FUCKING CAR IS STILL THERE!!!!!
Nice statement for me. She comes to the pub meets ???? then goes and spends the night with them. Leaving it pretty obvious for me.
Now maybe this is not a statement directed at me. But it fucking kills me none the less to have to see it and know what it means or ate least what my poor mind in trying to forget about her thinks it means.
Oh and just to make it nice, I am standing outside this morning talking to my neighbor when a pickup pulls up and drops miss Heidi off at her car at 7:45am. Grrr.... damn coincidences.
GOD DAMN MANIPULATIVE BITCH!!!!!!!!
FUCK.
I feel miserable today.
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And I'm sorry you are feeling so miserable