So it has come to this..I am moving out of my house on Thursday...and for some odd reason I feel relieved.. I have just been feeling lately like everything I do is because I have to..and not because I want to. And I've been feeling like I"m swimming against the current and I'm about to fucking drowned..I haven't been on a ride in months, I constantly have to explain where I'm going and what I'm doing and it's driving me nuts!! I feel like I"m taking crazy pills!!
On the other hand..I might be on the verge of one of the biggest mistakes of my life.. Why is it that when I have love right in front of my face I feel the need to throw it away? What the fuck is wrong with me? I think love is so stupid..it evokes the same physical response as anger..but yet it's acceptable..people kill people in a fit of anger and call it temporary insanity..well that's what love is..temporary insanity..and it makes you do stupid shit and drowns you when it goes bad...they ought to implement a wide-scale push for "love-management counseling" just like they have for anger management. Crazy man...
But what else can I do? I have been absolutely sick to my stomach lately trying to figure out why I feel the way I feel and I'm sick of it!! So before I run off and join the fucking Navy again..(which was great therapy by the way) I'm going to leave for a bit..I need a month long hiatus..I'm fucking nuts as it is..and you throw all this shit on top of it and I'm amazed I'm still on my feet!
On the other hand..I might be on the verge of one of the biggest mistakes of my life.. Why is it that when I have love right in front of my face I feel the need to throw it away? What the fuck is wrong with me? I think love is so stupid..it evokes the same physical response as anger..but yet it's acceptable..people kill people in a fit of anger and call it temporary insanity..well that's what love is..temporary insanity..and it makes you do stupid shit and drowns you when it goes bad...they ought to implement a wide-scale push for "love-management counseling" just like they have for anger management. Crazy man...
But what else can I do? I have been absolutely sick to my stomach lately trying to figure out why I feel the way I feel and I'm sick of it!! So before I run off and join the fucking Navy again..(which was great therapy by the way) I'm going to leave for a bit..I need a month long hiatus..I'm fucking nuts as it is..and you throw all this shit on top of it and I'm amazed I'm still on my feet!
But don't go and re-join the Navy or do anything crazy. Things work themselves out...