braaap

hmmm...
so I like to have fun

I tend to say fuck that noise if something doesn't sound like fun.
Some might say life isn't fun and I need to accept that.
I say I know life isn't fun, that's why I made it my mission to focus on bringing fun to life.
but at times there is no way, or at least no appropriate way to have fun with the misery known as life (or it's unpopular twin... death)
today the end of a life reminds me of the nature of life.

I want to be mad... I want to sayfuck you.
I wanted to feel good, get high and giggle and smile and get ready to enjoy a day at work. But nobody chooses to die, even people who commit suicide.
My second emotion is to try and find a positive angle, a perspective more positive.
LIfe is beautiful because it is short. we surround ourselves with distractions and pleasures we've found we can reasonably count on throughout our lives, but those distractions are the evolution of a more basic instinct passed on from those who knew better than us that life is short and almost always 'unfair' and that we must celebrate each day... each opportunity. each life while it is here.

because for so many of us there will not be a tomorrow.


I am emotional this morning, but that does not mean I am not sincere.

I love everyone here. not just here... but now I am here now, so I will focus on here. especially if you are reading this.

If you are reading this then I want you to know I love you and I want to say thank you for being there to love.