boundwithscars

WoW!!! Its almost been a year since my last blog. I can't believe it. Normally I sit in my apartment alone letting my thoughts consume me while waiting for my phone to ring. The boy as discussed in my last blog is still in my life. It has changed everything I seriously never thought I would be this happy in my life. I can't help but think this is it. This is healthy. This is where I want to be. With him and I'm ok with that. Its been almost a year like I said and I haven't even once been on the prowl to look for something better. I don't need to. Even when things are hard I look at the pictures of us I look at my apartment and think of all the wonderful things he has done for me and it puts my mind at peace. He graduated in June from highschool. Yes I went to prom and it was truely humbling to get that chance to do it again. and not feel miserable about it. Currently he goes to a school thats 2 and a half hours away. I see him on the weekends and when I have block days off. It kills me not to see his smiling face everyday but I know that everything is going to be ok. I trust him which is something that is very hard to gain with me espically in a relationship. His is rooming with two of his bestfriends which I in turn consider to be my bestfriends. I love them. I love the family of friends we have and truely it has been a fantasic last 10 months. I wouldn't change a thing with the exception of my boyfriend not comming home in December. It hurts but I want him to be happy. I just hope he doesn't end up staying at school for 5 years. Yes its something completely selfish to stay but I just miss him so much. Soooo mushy I'm sorry.

Thats why they call me mush.

Goodnight- I'm going to spend some time with him while the night is still young.

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