i slept most of my day away which to some degrees i don't believe is a bad thing. today was my first day off where i didn't have any plans wether it be school or taking care of my various legal issues (traffic tickets woohoo) but that is all done.
goodbye march hello april-- i will be 20 in a week. that scares me i'm getting to the age where i am "supposed" to get a real job where i have to begin to "tone down" my image. and yet i look at myself and am satisfied with my appearance and how i dress. my family is urging me to get a corporate job to grow up. as if one equals the other. i don't believe that. why is it to be "grown up" you have to have a house, kids, a marriage, and a "suit"? i just don't get it.
tommrow will mark a year since i met a certain boy. this makes me sad. i haven't seen him since july of last year and inevitably it is my fault. i'm glad that hes happy right now with whoever hes with. but i wish sometimes that it would be me.
lesson of my day: i cannot change my past but i can learn to become content with my present (easier said then done)
goodbye march hello april-- i will be 20 in a week. that scares me i'm getting to the age where i am "supposed" to get a real job where i have to begin to "tone down" my image. and yet i look at myself and am satisfied with my appearance and how i dress. my family is urging me to get a corporate job to grow up. as if one equals the other. i don't believe that. why is it to be "grown up" you have to have a house, kids, a marriage, and a "suit"? i just don't get it.
tommrow will mark a year since i met a certain boy. this makes me sad. i haven't seen him since july of last year and inevitably it is my fault. i'm glad that hes happy right now with whoever hes with. but i wish sometimes that it would be me.
lesson of my day: i cannot change my past but i can learn to become content with my present (easier said then done)