boundwithscars

so i'm sitting here on my couch at 2:15 in the am watching sex in the city. thinking like some people sometimes do. why do i feel so lonely? it has been a couple of years after highschool and like most of my family has said my friends have disappeared. the most i talk to them now is a comment on myspace wow trust me my life is exciting. i've been tring to meet new people but it seems like i meet a consistant road block. common interests aren't there i'm not fucking scene enough. i feel boring....if i develop a crush on them and tell them heaven forbid i become ignored. woofreakinghoo so what do i do i hang out with my x. hes having the same problem that i am as far as meeting new friends and or other prospects. simply i cannot go back to him and the more i hang out with him the more i feel like were back together. NOT GOOD!! to boot i feel unattractive. yes my picture may look nice. nothings what it seems. :sigh: maybe i should stop drinking so much soda!

i think going to bed is a good idea. it will get my mind off things. and i know tommrow will be a better day. hopefully this week will be better as well. my birthdays in 11 days OMG !!!