This is the hardest thing I’ve had to sit and write. October 24 two days before Boba’s 3rd birthday, my boyfriend Nate woke up early and took Boba for a walk and to get coffee. Once I woke up we went and grabbed Boba’s best friend Stretch for another walk to the park. He seemed fine. He didn’t wanna go home. After dropping Stetch off, we went home. Boba was favouring his back end, we thought he had to go out still so Nate took him out to the park with his iPad so he could draw and Boba just sat there.
I was getting ready for a photo+video shoot that I was doing with Steve Carty for onlyfans.
Boba seemed fine, sat with his dad at the desk while he was drawing.
After Carty left I came back upstairs to take Boba out. He seemed to be panting a lot and I just assumed he really needed to go out. The elevator door opened and he puked instantly in the Lobby. I picked him up and took him out front to the grass and he just laid down. We stayed there for a while, I was trying to get him to walk and he just sat down, didn’t wanna move. So we sat, I thought maybe he can’t pass something. So we sat, talked.
He wasn’t wanting to walk so I carried him back inside, and ran to our local pet store to get something to help him. By the time I came back my boyfriend was at the door with Boba saying he is panting and shaking intensely.
We got in an Uber and rushed him to the hospital. At the hospital he proceeded to get worst, not being able to walk properly but he wouldn’t stop pacing, shaking and panting.
The doctor saw him and told us it really looks like he has IVDD, it was common in his breed and just happens, sometimes multiple times.
We left Boba there over night, by that time as he was trying to walk his back legs gave out completely. Leaving him there was so awful I didn’t want him to not be with me. They gave him pain meds, watching him very closely as the nurse went to my dog park and knew him) We were waiting for him to see a neurologist to find out if that’s what it is and if so the $7,000 surgery he would need or what was wrong.
I was horrified. Never slept. Researched IVDD and the recovery of a surgery like that. Discussing with my boyfriend what we would need to do. Never once did I think I would put him down. There was no way, my baby needed me and I was going to make sure he was going to be ok.
Boba & his Gigi (my mum)
Once we found out from the neurologist that it definitely was IDVV we found out more info.
We knew the surgery cost. The quality of life would not have been good and the recovery would be long. There was also a chance of reoccurrence. He wouldn’t have been able to be himself. The recovery would be long, he would need to be caged and to sit there. There was so much more that I’ve been going back and forth in my head wondering if I could have made it ok, but there was just no way to I could get a definitive answer for myself.
My incredible boyfriend Nathan Long, a Toronto tattoo artist, who came into our lives back in June. When he came up to me while I was on my phone at the Nix tattoo convention, I was on the phone with my friend dealing with the fact Boba had puked six times.
(he had an issue with his liver which I paid 6k just for tests and meds, he got better)
He was so dorky and had long curly hair, put a smile on my face when I was stressed. Not knowing me or ever meeting Boba he had drawn this photo and coloured it with markers of Boba as Boba Fett. It is the best thing ever, so sweet. I love it so much.
Instagram: @nathtlong
Almost a month later Nathan and I started seeing each other. When he met Boba it was so precious, instantly attached to him, as I was. We fell in love. As we sat one night, he told Boba, “I’m going to be your dad” it was beautiful. We were a family, Boba and I found the missing love we desired.
Boba loved Nathan more anything. They played, went for long walks together. Boba knew exactly where he lived. If you asked him where is Dad? Or do you wanna go see Dad? He would go crazy, running and looking for him. He would hear the ding of a bike and think it was him on his bike. They had a special bond and he got lots of rubs from Nate.
Nate would have done anything for Boba. He even told me “babe if you want to do this 7K surgery for him I will cover it, don’t worry about money.” We were family, he do anything for his family. I love Nathan so much and am so grateful for all he has done for Boba and especially for me even though it’s only our 3months tomorrow!
Our fett family 💓
We called back and forth having more of our questions answered. The hardest thing was looking in the eyes of the love of my life and having to tell him I know he will take care of it but I don’t think I can take care of Boba the way he needs. Plus what I would be like when my mum passes soon (stage 4 cancer) that I will be a mess. Plus all the pros and cons of our research.
Deep breathe in! And I knew that I had to make the hardest most heart breaking decision of my life, to put my son down.
We went to the hospital to say our goodbye, the wait was torture, I couldn’t believe this was happening to me, to my baby.
When they brought him in, I was horrified to see him stiff and clearly in pain , no mobility in his legs. My poor baby, all I could say was “mommy is going to take the pain away baby, that’s my birthday gift to you, I’m so sorry” . I repeated that. We sang him happy birthday. We held him as he left us.
These were my last moments with my son, my sweet boba. 😭
He couldn’t move, it broke my heart to see him like this! He was so strong and never cried since he started showing symptoms. He’s such a tough guy!
He was my everything. Boba was by my side in a very dark time in my mental health he gave me a reason to wake up because I had someone who loved me and needed me. He’s all I had. But I got to call my mom during this and I couldn’t be more grateful she was here for me to do that, and I had the most amazing man by my side, holding me while I break down and loving me so much to take care of me.
I’m very grateful for all those who have reached out! Thank you for your condolences.
It’s just Nate and I now, it’s never going to be the same, my heart is broken.
Rest In Peace my handsome guy!
Boba Fett
Oct 26 2016 - Oct 24 2019
