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I wish there was somewhere I could go that people would be nice to me and not fucking blow me off. I'm so so so tired of it! This girl that my ex bf had dated has been talking to me for a while, yet we've never met. She's bi, like me. And she'd leave me comments on myspace about how hot I was, and she loves me and all this shit. Called me a couple of times and she was like...so fucking cool! She had called me to tell me she was pregnant too, and I should move in with her and her bf so we could be pregnant together. It was weird, cos on the phone we were the best of friends. A few weeks ago, she said she was coming down to raleigh and we should chill. So me and my husband were gonna meet her. I called her a few times and she didn't even pick up. So I was a lil hurt. I asked her about it, and she told me her friend had had an allergic reaction to weed and hadda go to the hospital. So a day or 2 ago she IMed me telling me to go out to this club that she goes to so we could chill. So again, me and my husband went out to this club and she wasn't even there. There was this one chick there that I knew, and SHE approached ME, and we all hung out til she left. So me and my husband were STILL waiting for this other chick....finally she shows up...pokes me....and walks away. That was it. She walked outside with her friends. So I followed her out....and she went back in! So I just stood out there with my husband. She comes back out....walks right by me...and goes upstairs to get high. Didn't even INVITE me. So I was like fuck this. Me and my husband went inside for a little while, and she and her friend FINALLY came in and stood kinda near us but I wouldn't even talk to her. I can be a cunt, too. I was just like fuck it, lets go, so me and my husband left. And he was all "you need to start talking to people when they ignore you...just go up to em and be like 'whats up'".....I was like FUUUCK that, im not gonnabe a fucking lapdog and look like an ass just to get blown off. And I started crying. cos my feelings were really really hurt. I dont have any real friends besides my husband and he prolly isn't even my *real friend*. I'm just so sick of and confused by people who act like they wanna chill with you, invite you out, then act like you don't exist. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE?!?!?!?! Better yet whats wrong with me? Why do I seem to search out these fuckers just to get upset and almost cry my eyebrows off? MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!!!! I hate everyone, especially girls, and I'm never never never going to try to be romantically involved with one ever again. end rant. ::scoots away::
PS: Send Mercie lurves, she needs cheering up, even moreso than me.