bombader

New Years Eve was trash. lack luster (the lack of luster) and dumb conversation-----but it was filled as always with new possibilites---and behold New Years Day the world was made anew. Good Good breakfast with friends-Bloody Mary's and Mamosas, lotsa ciagarettes , chattering, a nice long nap with a crappy Pirate movie (Roman Polanski's Pirates) ---woke back up made a smashing dinner and sat content.
I'm not one for resolutions--but I sorta made one this year--I decided to quit being so aggro. ---I'm very reactionary to assholes. I does me no good however--I end up pissed and they walk away still being an asshole....anyway I was able to put my resolution into practice New Years Eve:
My gal was down the street a bit taking to a friend and I was just standing on the sidewalk smokin' and this group of guys walsk by--one of them puffs up his chest and yells in my ear. My normal reaction would have been a physical confrontation without hesitation. But instead I just somehow let out a low whistle and turned my head----and whoalla!!!!! it was over. No fight, no ticket for fighting, no after-confrontation embarrasment---he walks away still being an asshole and I remain feeling okay..

Anyway its a big step for me, I am by no means a fighter--in the physical sense---I hate the notion of getting into the fight----but I think I went through the thick as a kid and just got to a place where I wouldn't take it anymore, and often I wouldn't take other people getting shit..but now I just want to reach a happy medium-where the calm takes the situation and redirects it..

Salud everyone ----it feels like a good start