Update for the ones out there who have shown me love and extended kind, supportive words...You know who you are...
For those of you who read my last blog, you know i have been having a hard time staying sober. It was a rapid downward spiral, and I'm hoping today is a new day for me. Yesterday I OD'd shooting cocaine....I got out of the hospital early this morning and have been okay so far with all the benzos they gave me to slow my heart. They gave me antibiotics for what looks like the begining of an infection in my arm. I don't want to do this anymore. I want to stop. I'm done with it, i know i can get back on track.
Not sure why i felt the need to tell everyone the details of my issues. I guess i just feel comfortable that i will not be judged.
Bobby
For those of you who read my last blog, you know i have been having a hard time staying sober. It was a rapid downward spiral, and I'm hoping today is a new day for me. Yesterday I OD'd shooting cocaine....I got out of the hospital early this morning and have been okay so far with all the benzos they gave me to slow my heart. They gave me antibiotics for what looks like the begining of an infection in my arm. I don't want to do this anymore. I want to stop. I'm done with it, i know i can get back on track.
Not sure why i felt the need to tell everyone the details of my issues. I guess i just feel comfortable that i will not be judged.
Bobby
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You know the seriousness of an od. You know that the likely hood of surviving multiple od's is pretty slim. The math on that isn't rocket science. It's a choice now. Not an easy one by any means, though I am confident that you know what's going to happen next and what you've got to do to get through it. Out of the dark and into the light....
In lieu of getting preachy, or rambling off on an emotional wobble I defer to one of my favourite movies, Trainspotting for a couple quotes:
"This was to be my final hit, but let's be clear about this. There's final hits and final hits. What kind was this to be? "
"I don't feel the sickness yet, but it's in the post. That's for sure. I'm in the junkie limbo at the moment. Too ill to sleep. Too tired to stay awake, but the sickness is on its way. Sweat, chills, nausea. Pain and craving. A need like nothing else I've ever known will soon take hold of me. It's on its way. "
" Thank you, your honor. With God's help I'll conquer this terrible affliction. "
Sending you thoughts dude. This is it.