so i went to brunch with A on sunday.
it was interesting. i learned a lot about her and myself.
insofarasthat goes, i guess it went well. and we drank goood drinks. and she paid for it all. hell she even paid my train fare home cause i didn't have money on my card and the money puteroner machine was like a block away.
i called her cunty when i was drunk the other day. that isn't entirely true, it certainly isn't entirely untrue either.
her demeaner towards me is still the same as it was when we were seeing each other/fooling around. except for the fooling around part. so, i think her rather flirty actions which apparently is just her wasn't really aimed at me like i thought it was. i guess what i'm saying is i think that i saw things as i wanted them to be, not necessarily as they were. i think that can happen to anyone, but i was surprised at how much i saw that way.
and, here is the part that really sucked. a dear friend of mine let slip the fact that A had told her she had "taken a lover" while she was talking about a related subject. so in order to not betray a very true and very dear friends confidence, I COULDN'T MENTION IT to A at all. as i said, she "took a lover" which i know to her means something different than dating. so, her saying she didn't want to date anyone now is not a lie cause she isn't. she is very clintonesque in her careful choice of words.
so, while the conversation was good, and we do have a lot of things in common, and on some level it was nice to see her. i am really glad that i am not involved with her anymore. she might make a decent friend but she does not make a good girlfriend.
Epilogue:
so that was the completion of my angry, helpful, and necessary closure. and i am done talking about her.
fin
it was interesting. i learned a lot about her and myself.
insofarasthat goes, i guess it went well. and we drank goood drinks. and she paid for it all. hell she even paid my train fare home cause i didn't have money on my card and the money puteroner machine was like a block away.
i called her cunty when i was drunk the other day. that isn't entirely true, it certainly isn't entirely untrue either.
her demeaner towards me is still the same as it was when we were seeing each other/fooling around. except for the fooling around part. so, i think her rather flirty actions which apparently is just her wasn't really aimed at me like i thought it was. i guess what i'm saying is i think that i saw things as i wanted them to be, not necessarily as they were. i think that can happen to anyone, but i was surprised at how much i saw that way.
and, here is the part that really sucked. a dear friend of mine let slip the fact that A had told her she had "taken a lover" while she was talking about a related subject. so in order to not betray a very true and very dear friends confidence, I COULDN'T MENTION IT to A at all. as i said, she "took a lover" which i know to her means something different than dating. so, her saying she didn't want to date anyone now is not a lie cause she isn't. she is very clintonesque in her careful choice of words.
so, while the conversation was good, and we do have a lot of things in common, and on some level it was nice to see her. i am really glad that i am not involved with her anymore. she might make a decent friend but she does not make a good girlfriend.
Epilogue:
so that was the completion of my angry, helpful, and necessary closure. and i am done talking about her.
fin
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I cut my hair after Ken and I broke up. I'd grown it really long (the way you know it) because he loves really long hair, so it was "Ken hair". I chopped it to just below my shoulders and then cried because I knew how long it would take to grow out again.
Still, it was cleansing.