blueeyedangel

It's not rare for some, but it's a first for me. I usually get one, sometimes two, and every once in a while a tiny third that doesn't really count. Four whoppers right on top of each other is just WOW.

I haven't had a TV or 4 years. I rot my brain with the Internet and SG....no wait, that's fertile stuff! I grow brainier!!!

Hi, how's tricks?

Wow, that is some heavy stuff....and I'm familiar with it too within my own life.

Unfortunately, I am a melancholy person by nature and I CAN have my moments of pollyanna bliss, but I'm always wanting more and 'it' is never enough. But I don't think it's unhealthy. It just makes me unhappy.

My melancholy is a side-effect of my drive, my 'greed' I guess, to find the underlying 'Truth' to everything.

This is where I got into a very scary Nihilist-Existentialist-meets-Eastern-Views-of-Maya zone. 'Maya' in sanskrit means 'Illusion' and refers to the reality around us, that it is as much dream as the thoughts in our head. SO...I got into this place where I reduced everything around me and in me into....well...figments. And then it's scary because you find that you can't live or strive for anything in 'world' anymore. You know it's like one of those Tibetan sand paintings....one breath of wind and it's all as if it never was.

So if I am only a dream, and everything around me has no rules....why am I human? Is what i'm feeling Human or what I assume is human? Where does ambition come from? where does need? where does emotion come from?

it's hard to explain but do you see what I'm getting at?

needless to say, it's hard to avoid being very confused and down about what exactly it's all about. and why you feel sad at all when your sadness is reacting to a dream.

Hey,

Wire-Guided implies a type of rocket (typically anti armour), which in this case is connected to the launcher by a thin wire that aids in the guidance of said projectile. These sort of weapons are common on bothe the US and Russian manufacturers' showrooms, though the former Soviet nations are far more fond of them than us. I'm not too familiar with these sort of weapons (I focus on air-to-ground munitions), but I hope this helped.

i know what you mean. watching the news recently is like watching live coverage of a train wreck...or a war.
wait. it is live coverage of a war. nevermind.

Vikings?!? VIKINGS?!? I want to see the exhibit. I Looooooooove vikings.

Well, feel better soon.

And there are few things more interesting than a Viking exhibit.

Happy hour started at lunch yesterday..blech. It was fun though. Tough week.

I have to work this weekend too..but my work is not REALLy work.

LOL...gee what question do I need answered..let me get back to you on that one..

Have a great weekend!

Thanks for the birthday greetings. Can the oracle tell me where to find a good job?

I had half-filled a quote book with great quotes about dreaming, but I never came across that one....I need to go dig that book up again.

that link didn't work!!

I have been a practicing buddhist for years. When I am not practicing my world starts to fall apart. Keep at it, it's such a great feeling when all is right with the world. That inner peace..you can't beat it..

I agree with lovecat, I get attached very easily too, and have a hard time letting go but tend to do so a bit more easily when I am practicing, I have better clarity, i see thing from a diffirent prospective.



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I used to get depressed...and I did let go of a bunch of crap that other people/society convinced me of. I'm not practicing anything even vaguely theological. Just my own little approach to life that I'm sure really only works for me.

Keep at it.

The hangovers last so much longer now...

Deal breakers? Hmmm, I'm not real fond of smoking, but I might be able to tolerate it, I know however, I could never date a guy who chewed. That is so gross. No job and no car wears quite thin on me as well. Not that I'm some big materialistic bitch, but I could never get serious about a guy my age or older that hasn't gotten off his ass enough to have the two staples of adult life under his belt.

Thanks so much, you are such a sweetheart.

I want to go see the Reverend when he's here...makes me want to dance,