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After a few years of volunteer work I was asked to leave for expressing concern with what I perceived to be willful acts of neglect by a staff member. After an investigation I may or may not be welcomed back.
It's frustrating, of course. I'd come to accept a number of rejections earlier in life; a failed marriage, the loss of various jobs due to...
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heartbaker:
I hope things start looking up for you
aldremech:
Keep your chin up sir. Good luck with everything.
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I haven't written in quite awhile. I'm doing so today because this day is special to me. It's the 24th anniversary of the day I miraculously survived an automotive accident of near biblical proportions.
I've spent nearly nine hours of the past thirty on the telephone. I have nothing clever to say now, just know that I'm well and will remain so for awhile. I'm...
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heartbaker:
It's a great thing you survived
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I'm beginning to feel nothing. No love, no anger, no connection to anything or anyone. I've been forced to quit my primary psychiatric medication of over a decade due to what seems an allergic reaction, but due to a change in my Medicare coverage mandated January 1st I have no options. I can't even return to my most recent provider, I tried to yesterday and...
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apostrophenow:
There is a school of thought that asserts all stories are some variation on a story from a short list of themes; these themes derive from lore passed down through hundreds of generations. From a metaphysical perspective these stories could be considered universal to the extent of all human experience. Your story is familiar to me; it's slightly different from mine, but not much. I feel empathy; partly as a result of my own pain - and partly because I suspect that your effort to find kindness in a place where taking pleasure in the pain of another is somewhat de rigueur may lead to further heartache (namely, the internet). You may not find comfort in the knowledge that whatever your story leads to, it's been done, and someone is bound to follow you. But at least you're not totally alone.
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I got a comment on my e-mail questioning how I could suggest being uncomfortable posting thoughts when I tend to wander aimlessly, ad nauseum. Great question.
My volunteer work requires a lot of listening, and I tend to be brief on those occasions someone asks my opinion. And maybe in the act of listening I've learned to be a bit long-winded given the opportunity to...
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I fear I'm growing even stranger.
I used to make resolutions with each new year, resolve to make myself better and have a concise plan how to make that happen. I'd like to say that after all the years of doing so I no longer need to worry about improving myself, I'm as good as I'm going to be. Nothing could be further from the...
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I spent an hour writing, fretting about my habit of starting a blog entry and never posting. I used to obsess about spelling, worry about people reading something into what I've written but not said. I just lost something I was working on for an hour or so concerning my volunteer work at the facility and how taxing but rewarding it was to give all...
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Yes, I realize this may seem a pathetic or desperate stab at the void yet, oddly enough, I'm comfortable with it. I think of a line from a Jann Arden song ("The Sound Of", from Happy?) I'm not lonely I swear to God, I'm just alone.
I do volunteer work with a number of people twenty or thirty years older than I am. Sometimes it...
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I had one of those all too rare moments today wherein my whole life seemed so tranquiil and uncomplicated, I'll stop short of calling it an epiphany. I've overly complicated my life so much by always questioning where I fit iin, what my purpose is in life. It's possible I might never know. But it's not by being so introspective that I lose sight of...
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Cyber Monday, all the supposed bargains! I ordered several items in time for Christmas, most of the from Fry's. All the items from Frys came back with a confirmations and invoice numbers, followed shortly by emails that none of the items were in stock.
I thought I was going to come across as particularly generous this year, now I guess I will be. It's hard...
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aldremech:
All the best to you sir.
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I was certain I'd lost all of these somehow. I did however lose the few messages I'd received up until last night when a major lapse in judgement found me overindulging with a small gathering of friends at least twenty years my junior. I can't fairly claim a drug free status in my profile I suppose, but it was a fluke, a rare relapse into...
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aldremech:
Sometimes a quick lapse in judgement can cause a world of grief. I know this all too well.
mab:
hi!! thanks so much for adding me!!! smile