I've been one of the people who gets a gym membership and never uses it, and have done the same with plenty other things. Now, I can say that I got an SG account and ignored it for a prolonged measure of time. Let's raise a glass to the art of procrastination...later...or something.
No, I won't end there. Rest assured, whoever comes across this writing by the winds of chance, that I'll rant for a little longer. I'm left scratching my head, though, about where to start: the forefront of my thoughts, or chronologically since I last wrote in here (which was when, right before Germany invaded Poland?). The random number generated coin flip [shut up] dictates... *ponders* ...let's just say forefront, so I can clear my mind of some things.
I've learned that what will predominantly defeat me in life are catch-22's, in some form or another. Depression, physical/educational maintenance, etc: whatever it is, I'm at the mercy of a suppressed obsession/compulsive trait that can either break me, or pull me out of a self-dug pit. How I control that, sadly, is beyond me. Motivation is something I haven't been in great supply of, and it would appear that something (most likely the situation caused by this lack of motivation itself) is driving me deeper into a lifeless sense of self that's been taking over what I do.
Though it may appear I'm now cutting this post short for reasons of demotivation,...well...that's...actually pretty much on the money. I blame the above, or a case of ADD I wasn't aware of. I'll write more later. Until then, shame on me, and such...
No, I won't end there. Rest assured, whoever comes across this writing by the winds of chance, that I'll rant for a little longer. I'm left scratching my head, though, about where to start: the forefront of my thoughts, or chronologically since I last wrote in here (which was when, right before Germany invaded Poland?). The random number generated coin flip [shut up] dictates... *ponders* ...let's just say forefront, so I can clear my mind of some things.
I've learned that what will predominantly defeat me in life are catch-22's, in some form or another. Depression, physical/educational maintenance, etc: whatever it is, I'm at the mercy of a suppressed obsession/compulsive trait that can either break me, or pull me out of a self-dug pit. How I control that, sadly, is beyond me. Motivation is something I haven't been in great supply of, and it would appear that something (most likely the situation caused by this lack of motivation itself) is driving me deeper into a lifeless sense of self that's been taking over what I do.
Though it may appear I'm now cutting this post short for reasons of demotivation,...well...that's...actually pretty much on the money. I blame the above, or a case of ADD I wasn't aware of. I'll write more later. Until then, shame on me, and such...