blasfemme

-get a '69 charger!

Oh damn! Glad it was something you could walk away from.

Gonna do something about getting an Internship in the States over the next week. Will be focusing on SoCal actually. Silicon Valley.

But nothing is decided yet.

Here's to us in Summer '04

Your ok right? I hope so. I hope your insurance bastards don't screw you. Well some good might come of this you never know.
Were you emotionally attached to the car at all?
My single neighbor lady has two cars because she can't muster up the strength to get rid of the old one. She is very attached to it even though it doesn't run!

'tis the season. i'm in the same hole.

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looks like im gonna be at fuckin azia tonite instead of the triple rock. the back room. im pals with a bartender and im tryin to save $$$, so...just thought id let you know. smootches, cutie-pie!!

Alive: Maybe

Kicking: Don't bet on it

Yeah I ended up working tonight at the turf Tuesday that is. I think I reached the bottom of my funk well. What ever.

The Penguin showed up at work tonight but I managed to ignore her entirely. But this shit is getting creepy. She called me and emailed me and then just showed up at my work with some of her friends. That 2 unreturned phone calls and an unreturned email and she still thinks it's a good idea to show up at my work. I don't know maybe I still might be able to shake her off my trail.

I found out some other news today from my exs brothers girlfriend, who is friends with my ex. I was telling her the story of the introductions. The one were my ex kept bringing friends down stairs and introducing them to me as the love of here life. And then later telling me we had things to talk about or she had something she wanted to tell me, and then proceeded to want to play a little kissy face with me. Gave me here new cell phone number and then told me to call here when I got home. So I did and she did not answer or call me back for like 3 weeks. Well the news that her brothers girlfriend told me was that my ex is dating /seeing some guy that she is tight with, and that she is going through some shit she wouldnt say what but the point is. What the fuck???? The whole problem is she is doing what she is doing but didnt tell me she was seeing anyone and its been like 2 years and I still have feeling for this girl.
All in all I feel like a lifeless marble constantly getting smacked out of the circle. I can't seem to feel my feet touching the ground. But it's not like I am light with delight. But so heavy I have become one with the ground. My connection with established reality has slipped, I look around, just as I thought I was starting to understand; every next step seems further away and out of focus.

And then also today I ran into my most recent ex who I was only with for like 4 months if that. She was all polite and what not, which is great, good, fine. But then slips in the we should meet for a beer sometime. I feel like I am in some weird holly wood movie, Like better off dead. Lets see how much weird ass shit we can put this guy through in a matter of hours and then some how at the end make him out to be the beloved hero. Only drama queens and the Hero carry this mind set and the hero road out of town into the sunset yesterday, and I anit no fucking drama queen.

i'm just happy to have such a super friend.

puppydog smoochies.

nothing happened anywhere ever? WTF?!!!!

Aren't you forgetting "The MAYO"???????

Aren't you forgetting "Do you smell gas?"

I should have gone.

-god, i love rowdy drunken people.

What kind of bass? (Me: 2 Steinbergers and a pre-CBS Fender P)

Also, I know that scene...you may want to rent "Amelie" and feel good about French film again...

Some pornography last night as I stroked myself to sleep.

somebody blew me a million kisses. glad you got lots of time off, and i hope you get to break my sg cherry some day.

"question of the day: what was the last nice thing someone did for you?"

leave this - for me.

think of you often. gone from SG soon. you're still in my heart.

rock on witch yo bad self.

You know I'd set people on fire to make you smile. And the last song listened to today was "Angel Eyes", Jerry Cantrell.

i listened to coal chamber "Feed my dreams" last night(early morning).

Numb-nutless... my "but" was the correct form of but/butt I was looking for. So, butt fuck, what do you have to say now?

It was late... I was tired... just talked with natas... i mean the stars were in line for a spelling fiasco.

I am working tomarrow night downstairs in the clown lounge or tonight I guess wensday at any rate

[Edited on Jan 07, 2004 3:38AM]

i really do want to hang out with you all. but im really frigging broke cause of the holidays, so i don't go out at all now, try to pay and stuff. not gonna miss the burlesque show if i can help it